The Way I See It

I Seriously Need to Commit More, Much?

2009-07-27T16:20:00.000-07:00

So, it's been a long time...a very long time...Oh well. So, the "How It Happened" (Me narrating my life) thing will start probably next time. I wanna show y'all what I've been into lately!
PIXEL ART!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(All of my art can be viewed on my DeviantArt Page)
I've also been drawing lots of line arts, which anyone can color as long as they
1. Give me credit and link back to the page of the image (not just the image itself)
2. Email/comment/note/whatever me so that I can see what you made
3. And if you have a DeviantArt account, please favorite the original drawing
4. ENJOY IT! :D

And I have a youtube account, and might upload some music...except that it'll just be me singing...no tune...because I can't play any instruments. -.-

Anyways, rant at you later! :)

Intro to My Fail Life, Much?

2009-04-24T08:17:00.000-07:00

In order to practice my writing skills without delving too deep into a whole nother story that would probably end up taking up about 8 years of my life, I’ve decided to narrate some of my fondest memories. I’ll also be narrating the moments of my life that make me cringe when I think of them. Only some of those though. There’s just way too many.

They won’t really have any real order…just whatever I feel like writing about. This is to practice my descriptions, my “trying to be funny” and also as a way for me to keep records of things I’ll forget in 12 years. There is no plot, character development, etc…since it’s just the truth as I lived it, duh. I’ll make it as honest as possible, but consider that in my old age (Hey, I’m fifteen, and when you’re fifteen and somebody tells you they love you, you’re gonna believe them!), my memory of age 5 is not 100% accurate, so gimme a break. And please realize while you read this that I am not really a very interesting person. I have never charged into a burning building and gallantly saved the lives of two small children named William and Andrew, nor have I engaged in a duel to the death with a grizzly bear and won. (One day, dear reader. One day.) This is just practice. It’s not a work of art. It’s practice. Get it? Practice? We clear? Cool. Then my tales of doing absolutely nothing with my fail of a life will begin shortly. Like, when I’m not in class when I should be paying attention. Kthnxbai.

It's Been a While, Much?

2009-04-10T21:27:00.000-07:00

Icons:

Drawings (I learned to shade!!! :D)

Random Scribblings for Sahinia, Much?

2008-11-27T18:09:00.001-08:00

What is it that you’re looking for?

How can you find it if you don’t know?

When will you call it yours?

And does it wish to be owned?

Look inside the padlocked box

Holding your heart, padlocked box,

You hold the key, padlocked box,

A key for no one, padlocked box.

When I would cry,

You would sing.

When I would wail,

Happiness you’d bring.

When I was hurt,

You would heal.

When I was with you,

Happiness I’d feel.

All things dark

All evil sin

All shadows

All eerie night

Inside me, inside me

Creeping along my skin

Inside me, inside me

A voice that whispers in my ear

Red eyes always seeing me

Laughter echoing, echoing,

Inside me, inside me

It wasn’t loneliness,

It wasn’t pain,

But knowing

I had so much to gain

She whispered

I love you

I whispered

Me too

We flew into the sun

Ignoring everyone

Else who wasn’t us

In her I put my trust

When I was young, I dreamed,

When I was old, I knew,

Then I wondered, now I see,

And wish it wasn’t true.

How I wish you knew my face,

As though we were together,

Away from that evil place,

And then, forever and ever,

You’d know me, be with me,

Everything would be yours,

And you wouldn’t see, wouldn’t see,

The lies behind closed doors.

I’ll catch you

Even if I fall

To so do

I’ll save you

Even if I be damned

To so do

I’ll be with you,

Even I be alone

To so do

I’ll love you

Even if I be hated

To so do

Guardian angel,

White wings, garb of gold,

Eyes of lavender,

Guardian angel,

Looks young, so old,

Oh how I love her.

Do you remember loneliness?

Do you remember love?

Do you remember memories?

And are those moments enough?

Do you remember laughter?

Do you remember smiles?

Do you remember chasing after

What is was that you so desire?

Does that matter to you now?

Do you still hold onto dreams?

Do you still refuse to bow?

Is all as it once seemed?

Misti, Much?

2008-11-27T18:04:00.002-08:00

A silver heart, tied to a silk red ribbon.

Silk as red as blood, blood, blood.

Red as the blood they had her spill,

Red as her blood dripping from her fangs.

Silk as soft as flower petals against her skin.

Soft as the wind, soft as starlight.

Soft as the voices that sing her to sleep,

Soft as the moon she howls to.

A soft, red chain,

With a silver, heart-shaped weight.

Red as death,

Soft as thorns.

The wolf throws her chain to the wind,

Cries to the stars.

Tries to run away.

But the stars and the wind

Are always with her

Always listening for her howls

So that they may take away her pain,

So that we may take away her pain.

Star, Much?

2008-11-27T18:04:00.001-08:00

Who do you think you are?

What do you think she is?

She isn’t your plaything,

Not your toy, not your nothing.

She isn’t your easy slut,

She isn’t the one night stand,

She isn’t a rumor you can spread,

Not your toy, not your nothing.

Push her down then make her cry,

And you don’t even care.

Give what isn’t yours to give,

Leaving someone else to pick up the pieces.

She bleeds and she falls,

She dreams and she smiles,

She prays and she lives,

SHE DOESN’T NEED YOU.

Who do you think you are?

What do you think she is?

You aren’t her desire,

Not her dream, you’re her nothing.

You aren’t her Prince Charming,

You aren’t the reason for her smiles,

You aren’t the one she points to, giggling,

Not her dream, you’re her nothing.

Bases, Much?

2008-11-26T19:18:00.000-08:00

2008-10-12T13:37:00.000-07:00

Stream of Consciouness, Much?

2008-10-07T16:58:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling so lethargic and bored lately. My life practically revolves around school, with little intervals where I can go on DA and Facebook. I miss my friends. I wanna see Irena, Flo, Lora, Julie, Sara, Eden...I HATE NOT BEING ABLE TO SEE EVERYONE! -sigh- Well, I'm depressed, but more than being depressed, I'm just bored. It's like all the days of my life are blending together. Days aren't based on Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, but "English quiz, Bio test", "English quiz, Spanish project", "English Quiz, other English quiz", etc. And yeah, I have an English quiz EVERY DAY. And weekends are classified as "me days", the only days where there is free will. I'd be a lot less depressed if my days meant something. I don't get anything out of my life. I was reading Kare Kano, and Mr. Miyazawa says "a day in high school is more precious to them than an entire month will be to them as adults". It makes me wanna cry when I compare that statement to my life. Oh, look, now Spongebob's on. I feel sorry for the creators of this show, because they probably have so much pressure on them to keep their audience...how long has the show been running? Oh, what does it matter? Well, Avatar beat them one year at the Nick Awards. I don't remember how I know that. I might have read it on a website. Speaking of websites, I've been downloading lots of music lately, but I still can't find "Hello Beautiful" by Vic Mignogna. I really freaking want that song. They don't have it on f***ing iTunes because iTunes is epic fail. Speaking of which, my iPOd has recently begun sucking. Like, it'll run outta battery in like twenty minutes even if it's been charging all night. I've had it for like three years, so that's probably the cause of its suckage, but I can't afford to buy a new one, as I'm probably gonna blow all my money at the Anime Convention our Anime Club is going to this Halloween. And I mean that I'm gonna blow it all on merchandise. I wanna buy a buncha crap. I also want "Hello Beautiful". I f***ing want it. Well, I don't have that, but I do have Brisingr. It's good, guys, you should read it. It's funny, too. Ah, I'm tired.

Patty got me Hello Beautiful.
Because she's awesome.

Part of Sahinia, Much?

2008-10-05T20:10:00.000-07:00

Long ago, when the world was new, and the heavens were bright, The Creator grew weary from His conception of the universe. In order to save Him strength for later, The Creator opted to fashion helpers, to oversee the Earth and its brother world Sahinia whilst He rested, generating more strength for the future.

He did not spend a great deal of time contemplating His first helper; time was never something He did not have control over. Since on his planet, His first child was a man, He chose for the first of these new children to be a woman. He created me in the image of the Light, Purity, and Virtue. He called me “Humilis”.

He desired to see the power He had given me, and so The Creator asked me to create the next of my kind. I asked if the next creation was to be male. He replied that it was my decision.

And so I created Humanitas, who was my opposite in every way in appearance. If I had been shaped from Light, then Humanitas was shaped from Darkness. The two of us were as Day and Night to one another, neither ever leaving the other’s side. We aided The Creator in forming five others of our kind, but neither Humanitas nor I desired their company, merely each other’s.

The seven of us were The Creator’s High Angels.

The Creator immediately sent me down to Earth, and Humanitas to Sahinia, in each of which only two humans lived.

Adam, Eve, and the other halves of their souls, Aslet and Eyri.

Each pair lived in Paradise. But they were human, and thus able to be tempted.

Lucifer, a Fallen Angel, one of the many created after the High Angels, along with Gabriel and Michael, one of the Angels who were given human names, sought an end to their happiness.

Humans are led to believe that they are the original cause of Sin. Amen, I say to you, one of The Creator’s own High Angels, full of kindness and love, was the one to father true evil.

Lucifer attempted to seduce Adam and Eve with evil words, but he found, to his rage, that the two of them were still too childlike to even contemplate wickedness. They were far more interested in the wonder that was the world. And over them was the protection of the highest of Angel, myself.

And so Lucifer decided that instead of merely tempting humans, he would seek the second Angel, Humanitas. He would use his darkness to infiltrate the Angel’s mind, and manipulate his pure thoughts into wicked ones.

The words Lucifer whispered to Humanitas over and over are lost to darkness. Luring, tempting words they were, in the middle of the eerie night, when one is closest to evil and the Shadow world. Humanitas began to succumb to Lucifer’s shadows, as the demon could enter his mind and change his deepest values.

However, we Angels are not fools. Humanitas knew what was happening, and decided to expel the evil from his soul. He considered several options, but he knew there was only one way to eradicate the evil most efficiently.

And so Humanitas split his soul in two.

The other High Angels were pleased with his actions. A wise decision, I heard them say to one another. Now he is purged of evil. But The Creator was troubled, for he knew the evil half-soul Humanitas created would not disappear, and that Lucifer would seek and abet its darkness.

True to The Creator’s prediction, Lucifer found Humanitas’ evil half-soul and transformed it into a full soul, using the lives of some of the beasts in the gardens where the humans resided. Lucifer decided to call his creature, the Sin of an Angel, Invidia.

And so Lucifer sent his Demon to Sahinia, as he himself went to Earth, and the two evilest of souls had the humans sin. Lucifer took Eve’s sin of pride from her and created a demon even more powerful than Invidia.

He called her Adrogantia.

The Creator banished the four humans from His Gardens of Paradise, not only for betraying Him, but because now they could not be sheltered from sin; their hearts were no longer pure. It was not possible for Him to keep them under His protection. They knew of good and evil, they were no longer entirely his.

And thus, for some thousands of years, many prophets arose, along with kings and demons, and time and time again, the Creator’s human children prevailed against evil. They suffered and they fought, but the descendants of Abraham and lived on.

It was not until the birth of the Prince of Peace that Lucifer once again decided to attack the Creator’s people. As the Prince bowed His head and begged for forgiveness for the sinners, eternally saving Earth, Invidia entered Sahinia.

In order to prevent the death of many, Humanitas followed his soul brother, and in his haste, he neglected to inform his siblings, the other High Angels.

Humanitas was never heard of again.

*****

I looked around the charred remains of a once happy village, tears welling up in my eyes. I could feel the pain and suffering the people of this place had felt as Invidia sent his black fire, entering through their eyes and ending at their hearts, turning their bodies into burnt corpses.

“I’m sorry I couldn’t stop him,” I heard Lucy say softly behind me.

I shook my head. “No. You are not of any guilt, Lucy.” I pictured the demon’s red eyes in my mind. His malicious laughter as he sent his flame of death through the humans, his sadistic pleasure in seeing the mothers rush to save their children, only to torch them to death together. “There is nothing…you could have done.”

I turned and saw that she was crying silently. “She took them,” Lucy whispered. “I couldn’t even stop that.”

“Of course you couldn’t,” I said gently. “You are only an Angel, Lucy. Adrogantia and Invidia are the highest of the High Demons. Had you fought them, you would have lost your soul.” At her anxious face, I sought to reassure her further. “She will be unable to kill the three of them, you know. Latito is her own daughter, and Valeo’s magic is on par with hers.”

She swallowed. “And Caligo?”

I opened my mouth, but saw that I had no definite reason for why Caligo would live. He held no great magic, and Adrogantia would have no reason to spare his life. “We can only hope…” I whispered, “that Valeo will protect him.”

Lucy’s eyes widened in terror. “But…Caligo…”

“Lucy,” I interrupted, more sharply than I intended, “if you are considering going after him, allow me to assure you that it will only end in both your deaths. But if you leave him be, he has a small chance of life.”

She was reluctant, I could see. But she nodded, knowing that she knew less of this matter than I.

I sighed. “Come, Lucy, now is the time we should—”

Mama.

I stiffened.

"What is it?” Lucy asked, worriedly, as I spun around and scanned the ruins once more. “What is wrong?”

I can't breathe, Mama.

I swallowed. That is no cry of the dead, I thought, frowning. Someone lived through this.

“Lucy,” I said quietly.

“Yes?”

I turned and looked at her once more. “Return to Eden.”

“What? But, Humilis, my mission—”

“—was not to be the same as mine,” I said softly.

Her eyes were confused. “But…”

“Return to Eden,” I repeated. “You are needed there. I must be the only angel on this world. If not, we know not how many demons Lucifer will send in retaliation.”

“We know not how many demons he has already sent!” she answered furiously. Her white wings angled sharply. “How will you survive in this world alone?”

“I will not be alone,” I said softly. “Someone has survived Invidia’s slaughter. That child is meant to be my only companion.”

She opened her mouth to protest once more, but then sighed. “Let me look upon the child,” she begged. “At least let me see this one companion of yours.”

I turned and sent a small tendril of magic as a sentry. I felt many memories of the dead, heard many shrieks and screams and sobs, felt much of the agonizing pain of being slowly burned alive…and then…

I found her.

Relieved but anxious, I drew into her mind, to see her encounter with Invidia. How could anyone survive this demon’s murder? His magic was less than mine, to be sure, but still more than any human should be able to bear…

I gasped as the child’s memories flooded into my mind.

Mama.

Mama and I together, praying quiet. “Amen,” I say, too early. She smiles at me, but makes me keep going. We keep praying, til there’s a loud BLANG outside, and someone starts laughing. Someone else is screaming though. Are they playing pretend? I get up and try to go over to the window to see, but Mama pulls me back, whispering really fast the rest of the prayer.

Then someone knocks on our door. Mama’s eyes get bigger, and my stomach doesn’t feel so good. Mama’s scared. Why? What’s wrong with playing a pretend game where one person pretends to get hurt? It’s fun, isn’t it, Mama?

And then the door gets kicked open. That’s not nice. People should wait for us to open it for them. I want to tell that to this boy, this boy only a little taller than me. But…when I look at him, I can’t talk or move.

His hair is long and black, and his face is sharp and young, with dark red eyes that remind me of fire…

I shudder. It’s really him. Of course I had known, but still…

Mama is shivering against me. It isn’t cold. But I’m shivering too. We don’t like this boy.

He smiles up at Mama. I don’t like his smile, either. He looks friendly, but I feel like he wants to eat us. “Hello,” he says cheerfully. His voice makes me wanna run away and hide under my blankets. But I can’t move…

“Wh-what are you?” Mama asks, holding me close to her.

The red-eyed boy walks into our house completely. That’s when I see his little black wings. Like the bats that live in the kitchen…but his are so small…how does he fly?

“What am I?” he repeats, his smile getting bigger. “Huh. What should I say? Something ominous, like ‘your worst nightmare’? You already look terrified of me, so I suppose that would be redundant.”

I don’t understand what he’s saying. But I know it isn’t good, cause Mama’s eyes keep getting bigger, and she keeps pulling me even closer to her, and she starts whispering prayers under her breath.

“That is so rude,” the red eyed boy says, like he’s bored. “Can’t you listen to me, woman? My voice will be the last thing you hear, anyway.”

“Be gone, Satan!” Mama shouts, her voice shaking.

The red eyed boy smiles. His teeth are sharp… “Not quite, mortal, but you’re oh so close. So very close…”

Mama stands up, picking me up with her. The red eyed boy makes his eyebrows go up. “Oh, are you going to try to run? Please do, it would be so amusing to see you try and escape,” he says, folding his arms.

Mama looks up. “Lord!” she cries. “Save my child! Let him kill me, but save her! I beg of you!”

The red eyed boy looks bored again. “He can’t hear you, you know. I’ve sealed off this town’s ties to heaven. The girl will die along—”

“I’ve given her nothing!” Mama screams. “Nothing! I’ve never had anything to give her! No matter what, I must give her life!”

I don’t understand. I don’t know what’s happening. Why is Mama crying? Why is the white haired man laughing now? And what is that blackness that’s all around his hand? Why is he pointing at Mama? What’s—

“Die.”

Mama drops me. I look up. Her eyes, so blue, blue as the sky, are all black now. The black is spreading…to her face…hair…neck…arms…

“Mama?”

She’s falling now…her belly is black…her legs…feet…she’s all black…and smells like fire…

“M-Mama?”

The red eyed boy looks down at me. “How sad,” he says, pushing some hair out of my face. His hand burns me. I feel tears coming from my eyes. “I’d hoped to kill you first,” he says quietly. “It would have been amusing to see her broken. But I suppose this works just as well. Tell me, little one, do you wish to see your mother?”

I blink. “Y-yes.” Little one? But he doesn’t look much older than me…

He smiles. “I’ll send you to where she is,” he says, but his voice is so scary…I can’t move…Mama, please get up…

I was on my knees from the memory of the death. That’s why we couldn’t find him, I realized. He set up barriers. Even when he’d been trapped in a human body, that of an eight year old boy, he’d still managed…

The white haired man puts his hand over my eyes. “Don’t worry,” he tells me, “you’ll be with her soon.”

I can’t move.

Then I hear someone singing. It sounds like Mama’s lullaby. Her sad lullaby to God that she’d sing to me when I was bad. I never understood the words. Mama said Papa taught them to her. They were in Elvish.

Where was the song coming from?

Then I knew.

I was singing it.

“Will you shut up?” the red eyed boy asked angrily. “That’s so annoying.”
I didn’t stop. I hadn’t even known the words til now, but now I knew them all. And so I kept singing Mama’s lullaby. And I hear someone singing with me. It isn’t Mama, though…his voice sounds a little like the red-eyed boy, except that his voice is soft, kind, sad…

“Stop interfering!” he screams, and takes his hand away from me. I look up, and he’s moved away from me. His eyes are big, and he’s breathing loudly. “What are you?” he asks, and his teeth are clenched.

I keep singing. That’s when I realize I can’t feel the floor anymore. But I don’t care. I keep singing. He’s moving away from me now.

“You’re one of His,” he says angrily. “Aren’t you? One of his little chosen ones.” He curses. “If I’d known all of them would have their powers at such ages…!” He looks at me. “I can’t kill you,” he says, standing in the doorway. “But mark my words, you little witch. The day will come where my hands will be around your throat. I’ll choke that divinity out of you. That day, neither your God nor Valeo will be able to stop me. And then we’ll see how protected you really are.”

He spins around and slams the door shut.

I sit there, not moving. I look down. I’m not on the floor anymore. I’m…floating. As soon as the word crosses my mind, I fall back onto the ground.

It hurts.

Then I smell smoke. How? I look out the window, and see only darkness, only smoky death. But then I know. The red eyed boy is filling everything with his blackness.

I look down at Mama. A weird noise comes out of my mouth. I don’t know what it is. “Mama?” I whisper one more time.

I hear a cracking noise and look up.

The darkness is coming through the roof.

The roof.

Why…why is it getting closer?

So much closer…too close…

I jolted back to reality. “Lucy!” I screamed. “We have to save the child! She’s suffocating!”

Lucy looked confused, and so I took off on my wings to the place I felt the child’s mind.

It’s so dark.

I landed on the black ashes, and rapidly said a spell.

I can’t breathe.

I was crying again. This child must not die. Soot rose, and then more, and more, and more...

And then I saw a hand. A small hand, the hand of a child.

I reached down, whispered a prayer, and then pulled on the tiny fingers that immediately coiled around my wrist. And so the hand turned into an arm, and then, a little girl.

She was completely covered in black, except that when she blearily opened her eyes, I saw that they are perfectly blue, with no black in the irises or in the white. Then her eyes closed, and she fell unconscious in my arms. I heard Lucy land behind me.

“This is the child?” she murmured.

“She drove Invidia away with a song,” I said quietly. “A song. A lullaby.”

Lucy knelt beside me. “So then, she is quite powerful?”

I shook my head. “No. Her faith is strong. She sings to God as a prayer.”

“And that gives her magic strength?” Lucy said, almost disbelievingly.

“It is different from the normal use of magic, to be sure,” I said, bemused. “But that makes it so much more powerful. This is the child. And I…am to raise her.”

Lucy reached out and touched the child’s forehead. “How old is she?”

I looked down at the little girl. When I probed her mind, I saw many other memories along with her encounter with Invidia. I knew her name, her age, her favorite foods…

“She is five years old.”

“Five?” Lucy exclaimed, shocked. “And, already, she can…!”

I nodded. “Yes.” I raised my head to look at Lucy. “Now, you must return to Eden, Lucy. I will take this child with me. I wish you luck.” I stood and folded my wings back into my body. I did not wish for Kitilina to wake and think me the angel of death.

“Humilis!” I heard Lucy shout to my back.

I turned and looked at her.

She smiled sadly. “The Lord be with you,” she said, touching her fingers to her lips.

I nodded. “And also with you,” I replied, laying one hand on my heart.

Then we turned from one another, I with Kitilina in my arms, Lucy with her mission to tell our Lord of Invidia’s slaughter. I heard Lucy take flight as I began to walk.

And so my life on Sahinia began.

Vic Mignogna, Much?

2008-09-28T13:28:00.000-07:00

MORE Ouran, Much?

2008-09-26T07:10:00.000-07:00

So, I'd like to make my own evaluation of the cast for Ouran High School Host Club:
1. Haruhi. Well, to be honest, I find her perfectly fit to her voice. Caitlin has a deeper voice than most female voice actresses, and Haruhi is, obviously, mistaken for a guy all the time by people. It wouldn't work with the story if Haruhi's voice was high pitched and girly. But while it's deep, it also has a subtle amount of femininity, which makes it more realistic. I think Caitlin is a perfect Haruhi, and I look forward to hearing her say some of Haruhi's lines (Mainly to Tamaki...hehehe...)
2. Kaoru and Hikaru. I am THRILLED with their voices, particularity Hikaru's. Nothing against the voice actor for Kaoru, I just haven't heard his voice before. I found a video where it's a clip of Hikaru, but the audio is Watanuki's voice. I immediately fell in love with the voice inflection and emotion the actor uses, and so Hikaru is something I'm actually really looking forward to!
3. Mori. Well, he made an excellent Roy. We can only hope Travis will manage to deal with all the lines he's gonna have.
4. Kyoya. Yes. Yes. And, yes.
5. Hunny. To be honest, when I read that Luci was gonna be Hunny, I was at first disappointed, because I was worried that, based on what I knew of her voice from the DNAngel anime, that she would overdo his girlyness a little too much. But when I heard the way she performs Hunny, all my worries were eased. She makes Hunny absolutely adorable and lovable. Just like his voice SHOULD sound! n.n
6. Tamaki. For the love of Edward Elric, must I even SAY it!?????
BEST!
CHOICE!
EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And now some other stuff.
1! I've downloaded tons of Vic songs onto my iPod. So I now have:
1. Brothers
2. Far From Home (Jesus=epic win)
3. Nothing I Won't Give (Holy crap, listen to it)
4. High Above Me (Haven't listened to it yet)
5. The Great Pretender (Very great. n.n)
6. White Night (AHHHH! I'M SO HAPPY I HAVE THIS!!!!!!! Me as I'm showing it to Patty: He has a voice like an ANGEL! Patty: I think that's why he played Dark. Me: ANGEL!!!!!!! ANGEL TAMAKI!!!!!!)
2! I have the Japanese version of Sakura Kiss on my iPod! I want the English version by Christina Vee, though. I always like the English versions of songs better. I like to actually know what I'm hearing, y'know?
3! My mom gave me permission to buy the Ouran anime when it comes out, no matter how much it costs! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
4! I HAVE AN A IN ENGLISH! HOLY EFFING CRAP!!!!!!!
5! Today I freaked out my Spanish class. Okay, so we were supposed to write some stuff on the board, and so my group was just about to start writing, when another group took our spot. Then the girl was like, "Oh, sorry, did we take your spot?" in a really sincere, apologetic voice. I was like, "Uh, YEAH, you did," in that way I do things, y'know, where I act like I'm mad but I'm just kidding? But apparently no one knew that, cause they all stared at me. Then, to my relief, they all started laughing. I apologized to the girl later, and she was like, "No, it's funny. You're a good actress, y'know that?"
But note to self: You are a freshman. Your Spanish classmates are sophomores and juniors. Stop doing stupid things.
6! My friend Patty and I are dressing up as each other for Halloween. Yes.
7! Me and Patty decided, that out of our friends who read Ouran:
Tamaki=Me
Kaoru=Also me (I introduced it to everyone, so I get to be two people)
Hikaru= Patty
Hunny=Flo
Kyoya=Jay (if for no other reason then I want to call him Mommy)
And we're undecided about Mori. It'll be Megan if she likes Ouran, if not, it'll be Patty cause she got that as her result for the Facebook quiz. (I got Tamaki. Hehehe.)

Obsession, Much?

2008-09-20T23:12:00.000-07:00

Love it or hate it, still an obsession.
I love manga
I hate Twilight
I love Jesus
I hate yaoi
I love Scrubs
I hate Mary Sues
I love literature
I hate analyzation
I love my family
I hate people who are mean to my siblings
I love tea
I hate colds
I love pre-evil-Sasuke Naruto
I hate Naruto after Sasuke leaves
I love Batman
I hate Superman
I love Spider-Man
I hate idiots who say they love Spider-Man but have only seen the movies, which SUCKED, do you hear me!? SUCKED!
I love vampires
I hate cliches
I love my friends
I hate loneliness
I love big words
I hate text speak
I love hugs
I hate music that's all about sex
I love t.A.T.u.
I hate people who hate gay people
I love Judaism and Islam
I hate people who think I'm racist just cause I'm white and Catholic
I love writing
I hate nonfiction writing
I love George Washington and Abraham Lincoln
I HATE THOMAS JEFFERSON
I love Ben Stiller
I hate whiny brats
I love pretending to be gay, racist, and preppy
I hate people who are mean to emo kids for no reason
I love webcomics
I hate people who are obsessed with sex
I love deviantArt
I hate that people keep taking pictures of themselves naked and then calling it art
I love Mr. Noodle
I hate prostitution
I love Charlie the Unicorn
I hate the sequel
I LOVE EDXWIN! I LOVE EDXWIN!
I hate the little b****es of anime
I love Winry Rockbell
I hate ALL Winry haters, especially those little whiny morons who think that "Edward is in love with ME so she needs to stop hitting on him, he belongs to his FANGIRLS!!!!!" Morons. Freakin' morons.
I love Tokka (Because love is blind! <3)
I hate Suki. DIE, Suki
I love The Simpsons
I hate American Dad. Seriously, STUFU
I love moderation
I hate extreme Republicans/Democrats. Democrats, stop being so open minded that your brains all fall out. Republicans, get your heads out of your you-know-whats.

More later, probably.

Geek a thon, Much?

2008-09-20T16:46:00.000-07:00

Ouran, Much?

2008-09-20T11:50:00.000-07:00

Cast:

Tamaki- Vic Mignogna
(Edward Elric- FMA, Fai- Tsubasa Chronicle, Broly- DBZ, Ikkaku-Bleach, Full Metal Panic!-Kurz, Wallflower-Takenaga)

Haruhi- Caitlin Glass
(Winry- FMA, Triela- Gunslinger Girl, Yakumo- School Rumble)

Kyoya- J Michael Tatum
(Domeki-XXXholic)

Hikaru- Todd Haberkorn
(Watanuki- XXholic)

Kaoru- Greg Ayres
(Negi Springfield- Negima, Tsuyoshi- Kodocha, DNAngel-Satoshi, Full Metal Panic!-Shinji, Pretear-Mannen)

Honey- Luci Christian
(Wrath- FMA, Tenma- School Rumble, Azumanga Daioh-Yukari, DNAngel-Risa, Full Metal Panic!-Kaname, Negima-Asuna, Pretear-Himeno)

Mori- Travis Willingham
(Roy Mustang- FMA)

Renge Hoshakuji- Monica Rial
(Sakura- Tsubasa Chronicle, DNAngel-Towa, Full Metal Panic!-Kyoko, Kodocha-Aya, Pretear-Yayoi, Yu Yu Hakusho-Gamemaster)

Umehito Nekozawa- Patrick Seitz
(Bleach-Isshin and Ukitake, Buso Renkin-Captain Bravo)

Ranka Fujioka- Mike McFarland
(Havoc- FMA, Ritsu- Fruits Basket, DragonballZ-Master Roshi and Yajirobe)

Kirimi Nekozawa- Cherami Leigh
(Sae- Peach Girl, Himawari-XXXHolic)

Ritsu Kasanoda- Christopher R Sabat
(Armstrong- FMA, Kuwabara- Yu Yu Hakusho, DBZ-tons of characters, Fruits Basket-Ayame (I'm just as freaked out as you are))

In other news, the characters in the Buso Renkin English anime Kazuki and Tokiko are voiced by the same people who voiced NEJI and REINA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so excited for the Ouran English Anime!!!! -sigh-

Wish List, Much?

2008-09-19T21:43:00.000-07:00

In case anyone's shopping.
Okay, not really, this is just up here so that if anyone ever asks me what I want for a gift, I can just pull this up.

1. Anime accessories
2. Anime accessories
3. Anime accesories!
4. iTunes gift cards
5. Kamikaze Kaito Jeanne volumes 5 or 7
6. A pony =D
7. GET ME THE FRIGGING PONY
8. Scrubs DVDs
9. Collections of poetry
10. Posters. Of anything I like.
11. GIFT CARDS!!!! (To FYE, Barnes and Nobles, etc.)
12. CANDY!!!
13. Throw pillows
14. Hats/belts/jewelry
15. Dragon/unicorn/fairy/fantasy ceramics/anything
16. Stickers. I love stickers.
17. Anything hippie
18. Makeup
19. KIMONO KIMONO KIMONO
20. Irish stuff!!!!
21. Irish stuff.
22. Did you hear me? IRISH STUFF.
23. Keychains. Always good.
24. I've mentioned the whole Irish stuff, right?
25. Notebooks. Pretty ones. BEAUTIFUL NOTEBOOKS. O_O But not too expensive...don't waste money.
26. Fruits Basket volumes 7 or 9.
27. Dorothy of Oz volumes 4+
28. Pick of the Litter volumes 5+
29. Clothes. I love clothes.
30. Monkey High! volumes 2+
31. STICKERS!!!!
32. Pink things are usually good.
33. If someone gets me an action figure of Orihime Inoue, that would be great, so me and my brothers can stick toothpicks and needles through her head and body. =D
34. Hair accessories.
35. Chocolate covered pretzels
36. Stuffed animals are probably good. (as long as they're cute and NOT FISH)
37. If there's any way to get stuff autographed by people I love...that's a GREAT idea.
38. Mixed, personalized CDs especially for me. Like the one Julie gave me Christmas 2007. Those emo songs picked out especially for me warmed my black heart. Well, okay, some of them made me want to cry, actually. Don't make me cry, guys. I won't like it.
39. I have so much CRAP, why am I asking for MORE!?
40. ANIME ACCESSORIES, DARN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

About books:
Here are some books NOT to get me:
1. Any Kamichima Karin books (I like the series, I just don't really want it)
2. Because I'M the Goddess 2-3 (I own them. Don't get me the first one. You'll look like a perv buying it. [the cover is...em...])
3. Any Ceres books (don't want em. Like the series so far, but I swear to God, Aya is SO pushing my limits)
4. Bleach 16 (I own it. Get me the frigging 15)
5. DNAngel 4-6, 8-11 (own em. Don't get me any DNAngel, guys. I don't need anymore. XD)
6. Chrono Crusade 2 (Own it)
7. Buso Renkin 10 (stole it from Jay, it's mine now)
8. Demon Diary 4 (own it)
9. Dorothy of Oz 1-3 (but you can get me the 4th one...GET IT.)
10. Fruits Basket 1, 16, 17, 19, 20, Fan book, Sticker book (get me the 7th or the 9th)
11. Fullmetal Alchemist 5, 7, 8, and Under the Faraway Sky
12. Imadoki! 5
13. Inuyasha 26
14. Any One Piece. Hate it.
15. Me & My Brothers 3
16. Monkey High! 1 (GET ME ALL THE VOLUMES!!!!!!!!!!!! D:)
17. Mugen Spiral 1-2
18. PHD 3-4
19. Pick of the Litter 1-4 (I would love 5 though)
20. Pretty Face 4
21. Rurouni Kenshin 28
22. Shaman King 1
23. To Heart 2
24. Vampire Knight 1
25. Yume Kira Dream Shoppe
26. Ouran High School Host Club 1

Okay, what series to not buy for me?
No more DNAngel or Vampire Knight.
What series do I totally love and would adore owning?
FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST
OURAN HIGH SCHOOL HOST CLUB
Bleach
Fruits Basket
Monkey High!
Dorothy of Oz
Tsubasa Resovoir Chronicle
Chobits
Shakespeare manga (any of em)
More later.

More Sahinia, Much?

2008-09-19T06:39:00.005-07:00

Most of the characters (except for the evil guys, Nex, and Amita.)
Intensely creepy demon, yay!
Princess =D

Just a Random One, Much?

2008-09-19T06:39:00.004-07:00

Would you whisper her name in the silence?
Brush away her tear?
Break apart her lonely chains?
Hold her close and dear?
Will she be your everything?
Your twinkle little star?
And will you let her know exactly
What it is you are?

Another Song for Sahinia, Much?

2008-09-19T06:39:00.003-07:00

Fly, you said,
To the sky, you said,
Like a bird, you said,
Fly away.

With wings, you said,
I’ll sing, you said,
Like a bird, you said,
Fly away.

With the heart shaped locket you gave me,
And the memories that save me,
I’ll fly away, fly away, like you said,
Like a bird, I will fly away.

Laugh, you said,
Bring it back, you said,
Like a bird, you said,
Fly away.

Dance, you said,
Take a chance, you said,
Like a bird, you said,
Fly away.

With the heart shaped locket you gave me,
And the memories that save me,
I’ll fly away, fly away, like you said,
Like a bird, I will fly away.

Here, you said,
Never fear, you said,
Like a bird, you said,
Fly away.

Love, you said,
From above, you said,
Like a bird, you said,
Fly away.

With the heart shaped locket you gave me,
And the memories that save me,
I’ll fly away, fly away, like you said,
Like a bird, we will fly away.

Story, Much?

2008-09-19T06:39:00.002-07:00

It’s raining.
She looks up into the rain, the translucent droplets hitting against the thin lenses of her black-framed glasses.
Plink. Plink.
She cannot feel the rain. But she knows that it is there.
No one is out today. No, because it is raining. No one wants to look at the rain. They close their blinds to shield the sight of the stripes from the sky, turn on their television to drown out the plink, plink, and tell themselves that it is sunny. No one wants to admit that there is rain. They pretend that it is sunny. They do not want to see.
No one wanted to see her rain, either. No. They would tell her to smile, put on a happy face, why do you look so sad? Nothing is wrong with your life. You should be happy, so smile. They would order her to stop her crying, to smile, you had better smile, you little brat, are you listening to me?
Because if they looked at her rain, they might have to look at their own. And no one wants to look at the rain.

---

She walks, not feeling the rain around her. She is too habituated to the rain that is falling in her heart; she cannot feel rain. To her, it is forever raining. She is the only one who is forced to look at the rain. And even she does not want to look at it, more than anyone; she does not want to look to look at the rain.
She continues walking, and does not stop. Why should she stop? She has not reached her destination, wherever that could be. She does not know, to be truthful. She has nowhere to go, and so she has not planned where it is she will be going. And so she will keep walking until she finds what it is she is looking for. And if she does not find it, then she will just have to keep walking, now won’t she? No one will stop her. No one is there to see her rain.

---

All of her life, people told her to be happy. She would try to tell them, try to make them understand, but when her mouth opened, they heard only what it was they wished to hear. Yes, they heard, you are right, I am happy. When she truly said, help me, I am afraid, why does it hurt so much? And when she saw this, she no longer spoke to others about her melancholy. They do not understand, she realized. They do not want to understand. They hide their eyes behind their tinted glasses, their glassy eyes, their unctuous smiles. They do not want to know my sorrow.
And so she no longer wept in front of the uncaring eyes. The only time that the tears fled from her eyes in stampedes was in the deep darkness of the eerie night, when all others are asleep, the witching hour, when the rain took the shape of demons.

---

The metal is cold. But she cannot feel it. She is numb. She feels nothing. She hears nothing. Her senses are dead from lack of use; jaded from the life in which all was provided, save for what it is that she needs. She walks along the metal, not feeling the cold, though her feet are bare, naked. When she left, she took no shoes. There was no time. She wanted to leave, leave before they could see that she was gone.
She wonders if they have noticed, or if they have lied to themselves, saying that she is still there. Her absence will not change that house. It will be no different. They will take one of the others, and they will mold her into their idyllic child. And will she fall the same as her elder sister? Will she go mad from the loneliness, and abscond from the house, the house that is not a home? She does not know. Nor does she care. Nothing matters to her.
She feels nothing.

---

The metal underneath her feet stretches on forever as she walks along the tracks, twisting when they turn, following the edge to her left.
They extend out into the wide horizon, as eternal as the rain.

---

Anyone else would have heard the whistling and the roaring. Anyone else would have seen the flashes of blinding light.
She does not hear.
She does not see.
And she does not feel as the metal monster slams into her frail, rain-drenched body.

---

She does not die.
No, she has been dead for so long.
She was killed so long ago, that she does not even feel pain as her eyes see nothing but red, as her ears hear nothing but ringing, as she is carried away into darkness.
She does not die here. She died in that house, that house that she so desperately wanted to disappear from.

---

The ones who will find her body will not know this. They will say, poor girl, it must have been suicide, so young, she must have had such a future.
They will not see what killed her. Because they do not want to see it. They do not want to look at it.
Because no one wants to look at the rain.

Song for Sahinia, Much?

2008-09-19T06:39:00.001-07:00

Who am I without him?
When he is not with me,
Holding me,
Defining me,
Who am I?

Who am I without her?
When she is not in front of me,
Challenging me,
Defining me,
Who am I?

Who am I without him?
When he is not speaking to me,
Loving me,
Defining me,
Who am I?

Who am I without her?
When she is not scolding me,
Hurting me,
Defining me,
Who am I?

Who am I without him?
When is not protecting me,
Hiding me,
Defining me,
Who am I?

Who am I without you?
When you are not looking at me,
Whispering to me,
Knowing me,
Killing me,
Who am I?

Who am I supposed to be?
Who am I without you?

And Another, Much?

2008-09-09T07:03:00.000-07:00

Cold…
Cold like the snow.
Snowflakes fall on my face.
Melt on my skin…
They’re gone…

Warm…
Warm like the sun.
Sunlight near my hands.
I reach out to catch it…
Not there…

Sad…
Sad like my tears.
The tears that fell when you wouldn’t look at me.
You turned away from me…
Alone…

Happy…
Happy like your smile.
The smile you used to show me.
But your smile faded…
Never again.

Love…
Love like the time we used to have.
The time where I was always happy.
But that time came to an end…
Pain…

Hate…
Hate like what I now have for you.
You who never loved me like I did you.
You’ll feel my pain…
Revenge.

Another Poem, Much?

2008-09-09T07:01:00.000-07:00

Lavender laughter, magenta smiles,

Lovely yellow happiness, please, please stay a while,

Blood red sorrow, pitch black tears,

Cerulean sadness, all my fears.

Vermillion anger, bright orange ire,

Fury blazes like a forest fire.

Apathy is gray, and emotionlessly white,

I sit here like a doll, into the night.

Pick a color, there I am,

Sing a song, start a band.

Pink and red and green and blue,

Colors burst out when I see you.

Lime green ecstasy, golden joy,

Excitement we feel around a certain boy,

Sky blue calmness, cream-colored sigh,

Not happy like to laugh, not sad enough to cry.

Dark blue fear, navy screams,

Terror is the color of the moon-lit sea.

Colors there, colors here,

Colors to show my love and fear.

Extended Haiku, Much?

2008-09-09T06:59:00.000-07:00

Like petals of blood,
On my silk sleeve it lands now.
Such is human heart.

Like broken spirits,
Crying out for redemption.
Such is human’s pain.

Like cold bloodstained tears,
That break apart innocence.
Such is human fear.

Like the dying cry,
Of the king of misery.
Such is human fool.

Like a soft flower,
Given by a kindly face.
Such is human joy.

Like laughter of youth,
Pure innocence and passion,
Such is human love.

Like the sweetest song,
Sung by a choir of angels.
Such is human soul.

Part of My Novel, Much?

2008-09-06T18:46:00.001-07:00

Chapter One: Earth

As Told By Kitty Thorton

“You should have said, ‘nice to meet you, I’m your other half’.”

~Relient K, “The Best Thing”

So.

I have no idea how to start this.

It’s hard, y’know. Everyone suddenly decided (without my consult, might I add) that I would be the one to start it off, and to write most of the story. In vengeance, I’m making Caleb write a lot too. He’s convinced that my asking him is a sign of undying love and trust, for I would never ask anyone else such an important task, or some such fantasy.

But we’ll get to Caleb later.

My name is Kitty Thorton. At the start of my story (the story that matters anyway) I was sixteen, in high school, and single. Add those together and you get misery, right? Not in my case, ‘cause I wasn’t some whiny little brat who needed some caveman to keep her self-esteem up. (Screw self-esteem, I got chocolate.) Unlike most girls nowadays, I was never some—

Cabi (who is reading over my shoulder and I want Cabi to know that that is very rude) just told me that I shouldn’t go on rants whilst writing this story. I told her that if she doesn’t like my style, she shouldn’t have suggested that I write the @!#$ thing. Cabi said get over it, baby. I said—I know this conversation is pointless and shouldn’t be included, Cabi, will you get off my freaking back!? For the love of William Shakespeare, make Caleb write the !@#$ thing, or Leo, or—Yes, I know I like to write, Cabi, I know that’s why you guys picked me, but I got no say in it and—oh, come on, I know those tears are totally fake. Please. You are so transparent—No, Leo, I swear I wasn’t being mean to her! Caleb, stay out of this! And stop laughing, Tammy!!!!

I finally got everyone to leave by telling them that I know where they hide their diaries. I don’t really, but now I really want to find Leo’s. “It’s a JOURNAL!” he says. Smooth, blondie, real smooth.

Where was I? Oh yeah. My name’s Kitty. Grab some popcorn, or some chips, carrots, peanuts, candy, eyeballs, or whatever your snacking preference is, and sit down for a journey into the mysterious, the dark, the sinister, the world of the unknown.

Okay, it’s not really that great, but let a girl be a drama queen, yes?

Whilst my story isn’t some macabre thriller, it is rather strange and quite unbelievable. Especially to your average John Doe. (For those of you who don’t know, cough, cough, Momo, John Doe is what they call an unidentified person. I think. That’s what I read in a manga once. Right? Whatever.) I doubt any of the five readers we’ll get (hey, if you have low expectations you can’t be disappointed) will believe this story at all. Well, that’s fine; I wouldn’t believe this acid trip unless I lived it. I especially wouldn’t believe it if I read it in some book under the “fantasy” section. (Well if I told the publishers it was nonfiction, they’d send me to the nice men in the white coats, now wouldn’t they?)

I’m fine with it, though. I realize that no one will take this seriously. But all the same, all of us (Nela, Caleb, Cabi, Aree, Momo, Laney, Annee, Flora, Linda, Raven, Keith, Tammy, Ling, Valeo, and the ones I don’t care about—just kidding, Dylan, I love you very much) thought it would be good to have a record. Because if the people of Earth won’t believe this tale, we know at least that the Sahinians will.

Sahinia. There’s the root of this story, at least from my point of view. The other me (I’ll explain that later) will probably be writing her own chapter of this book, the one that we’ll give to the Sahinians, and she’ll say that Earth is the root. But I guess the root we could agree on would be dreams.

Oh wait, that sounds really corny. I don’t mean ‘wish upon a star’, Disney, one-day-I’m-gonna-be-president-Mommy! dreams. Uh, no. Dreams as in, what happens when you fall asleep at night. For most people, dreams are weird little fantasies, or nightmares, that never mean much and are promptly forgotten about. To some, they’re mystical doors to the future or some such crap. To me and the rest of the motley crew we form?

To us, dreams aren’t dreams. They’re when we share the mind of our other selves, the other halves of our souls, and see another world.

The world in question? It’s called “Sahinia”. Whilst our “Earth” is technological, sinful, and downright crappy (Pessimist? Me? Nah.), Sahinia is the muse of fantasy authors. Green, magical, medieval in some ways, advanced in others, seemingly Utopia.

Except that humans live there, so it could never be 100% peaceful. Of course there have been wars and battles, but unlike our world, there are no nukes or guns in Sahinia. They don’t need them, because every person in Sahinia, down to the smallest child, has magic running through their veins. Not all of them have great magic; some have only enough to perform the simplest of spells—i.e. making a pebble rise up from the ground. (Pft. Lame.) The only drawback to magic is that whatever force you extend with magic takes an equal amount of energy out of the spell-caster. And that’s why magic is not often used in wars and battles; the only magic that would be helpful would kill the user. There were a few so-called “heroic” magicians who would die in order to use magic powerful enough to kill half an army. If you ask me, they’re idiots. But that’s why wars in Sahinia are much less destructive; they don’t have anything to wipe out large numbers with.

And, oh yeah, there’s kinda the elves, dwarves, nymphs, fairies, leprechauns, gnomes, etcetera…yeah, them. In fantasy novels, those kinds of people aren’t “human”. Well, in all honesty, elf is to human as Caucasian is to Asian. They’re just another human race. They have different languages, customs, and outward appearance, but they’re the same species. And just like on Earth, most of them are pretty similar and they don’t all hate the other races, but there are obvious differences too.

Just for the record, my other self is—

Oh. I haven’t explained that yet, have I? For every single person on Earth, there’s an equal and parallel person on Sahinia. They’re names are usually fairly similar, and they have the same looks and personality. They are literally the same person, in two different bodies. This is because they are each half of a shared soul. The other me is named Kitilina. We are a half elf, half human performer. Or at least, we were until Nela told us that we would have to leave our travelling acting life to become travelling saviors of the world. I’ll get to that next chapter; ignore it for now, m’kay?

That’s probably everything I’ll need to mention for background info—if I missed anything, I’ll explain it as I go on.

Unfortunately, whilst I was writing all this foreground, I was really stalling because I really suck at writing beginnings to stories. Especially to one this long. If I start too early, you’ll be stuck with useless information, and I’ll be stuck with extra weeks of writing. If I start too late, you won’t get enough information, and I’ll stress myself to baldness with catching up. So, what to do, what to do?

Ah heck. Let’s start with a cliché, my first day of high school.

No, that’s WAY too much of a cliché, and that’s probably too early anyway. So I’ll alter the cliché eeeeever so slightly. First day of junior year. I kinda remember that day.

That was when my entire life and reputation were shattered by six words spoken aloud over our school’s PA system…

…by an idiot, name of Caleb O’Reily.

My first thought on the morning of my first day as a junior, as I stared out the window of a musty bus as it rattled and clanked its way to school, was Only two more years, thank God.

I’d worked my butt off for the past two years to get all A’s in school so I could get into Brown. With my dad’s salary I would be able to go to any Ivy League school for free due to financial aid…so long as I was accepted. And so I strived to be academically perfect, and for the most part I was. It left little room for a social life, but I never wanted to be Senorita Popular in my life. Whatever, I still had plenty of friends, and while, yeah, some people hated me, I didn’t like them, so it was no loss on my part.

Ugh, I’m ranting again. But anyways, I gave myself a mental pep talk—This is your real last year, Kitty. If you mess this up, you’ll never be able to go to a college and you’ll end up the fryer at McDonald’s for minimum wage!

Gotta love self-derogatory pep talks, no?

Anyway, I wasn’t thrilled and I wasn’t worried. I was cynical but relieved. Oh, the irony. I should have been dreading the day, and trying to run away as quickly as humanly possible.

But enough about me. Let’s try to advance the frickin’ story.

I looked up as the bus stopped at Areeba Khan’s station. There were like, eight people besides Aree, but I honestly couldn’t care less about any of them. As Aree slid in next to me, I paused my iPod. I never turned it off in case I had a song I wanted her to listen to.

“Two more years,” she whispered. Our bus was always ridiculously quiet in the morning, since half the kids were asleep.

“Is it wrong of me to love the fact that soon, I’ll be kissing this hell-hole goodbye?” I whispered back.

Aree grinned, and her dark eyes sparkled. “No, Kit, I think that’s normal. I can’t wait for college!” She said, in her deep voice, now raised slightly in pitch from eagerness.

I winked melodramatically, as per my usual way. “Harvard, here we come!” I joked.

Aree whipped out her schedule. “Let’s compare, shall we?” she asked with a smile.

“We’re in homeroom together!” I exclaimed excitedly, and then clapped my hand over my mouth and looked around the bus. As I said, people were so frickin’ quiet in the morning that the slightest sound made it seem like the bus would burst. (Not that that would necessarily be a bad thing, but they’d probably make me pay for the damages.)

She smiled broadly. “And Science!”

“Just those two, huh?” I said sadly. “Which lunch do you have? I got A.”

Aree’s eyes lit up. “Me too! Awesome!”

I grinned. “This is great. Two more classes together than we had last year.” In sophomore year, the two of us had completely different schedules, and not even the same lunch.

As I shoved my already-crumpled schedule into my big sickenly pink backpack (I can’t help it; it’s my favorite color!), Aree continued to talk.

“So, what’re your plans for the second to last year?” she asked. “Wanna get a boyfriend, maybe?”

I rolled my eyes. “Yeah, right. Like that’ll ever happen. I can see it now: the church bells are ringing, the choir sings my favorite love song, the groom reaches up to unveil me…and then runs away screaming, ‘AHHH! She-man!!!’ What every girl dreams of when they’re young.”

“I said boyfriend, not husband!” Aree exclaimed, but she was laughing. “But you shouldn’t be so hard on yourself.”

“I’m not,” I replied, tossing my hair, “but boys are.” As I spoke, the bus pulled up to hell—I mean, school, and the two of us stood up.

“They probably aren’t as bad as you think they are, Kitty,” Aree said, meaning boys, of course.

The two of us walked together into the building, and I pointedly told her, “No, most guys really are that bad, Aree.”

“And what would you do if you found a guy who was utterly devoted to you, and not because of how you looked, just because he really liked you?” she shot back.

I rolled my eyes. “If a guy like that comes along, hell will freeze over.”

As I was to realize later in the day, irony sucks.

“Omigod, did you see what she was wearing?”

“I can’t believe the summer’s over!”

“You did what?”

“We don’t have any classes together!?”

“I can’t believe the summer’s over!!!”

I turned my head and frowned. “Could they be any louder?” I hissed.

“Sure, sensei, if you give ‘em a reason to,” Keith Dixie said flippantly. Keith, to put it bluntly, was a leprechaun. His bright red hair, tiny body (in both muscle and height), slightly pointed ears (I kid you not), and tendency to wear bright green Notre Dame Sweatshirts allowed me to taunt him every day in middle school. Unfortunately, Keith grew seven inches between eighth grade and now, so, him standing five inches taller than me, I could no longer beg him to give me his pot of gold. (And I was so close, too.)

The two of us were, like, best friends, even if we were different genders, and people did spread rumors about us dating. (And I totally got over that awkward crush I had on him for two years. Ugh, I don’t even wanna talk about that. I can’t believe that guy was my first major crush. Now it seems so incestual to me. Well, no, it seems like if I cloned myself, changed the clone’s gender, and fell for the clone. Ew. Sick. In so many ways.) He also called me Sensei, due to the fact that I would constantly drop little truths I liked to call, “Girls 101”, which mainly involved me telling Keith how to deal with girls, how you can tell they like you, etcetera.

But back to our pointless conversation.

“Cabi, how was Spain?” I asked, making a faux-disgusted face. “You rich little wench.”

Cassandra Babineaux made a face at me, and pushed some of her fiery orange hair out of her eyes. She goes to Europe, like, every summer. She was born in Spain, and her parents were French, so she usually goes to one of those countries. Whereas my family can barely afford to take a trip to Florida, and even then, we drive. (Not that I’m complaining. Much.) “Spain, dahling, was fantastic,” Cass said in a fake accent. Then, switching back to her normal voice, which only had the slightest hint of a French dialect in it, “I bet you had more fun at the beach, Kiba.”

“True. I bet there weren’t any evil raccoons in Spain,” I said nonchalantly. Cabi was sitting on my left, Aree behind me, and Keith next to her. The seat next to me was empty, so I got to put my backpack and other crap there.

Aree shook her head. “I’d ask for an explanation, but I’m not sure I want one,” she admitted. I assured her that she definitely didn’t.

I glanced over at Keith, who, for some reason, looked a little nervous. Not that it was surprising for a kid to look nervous the first day of school; it was surprising to see Keith nervous, well, ever. He didn’t get nervous. It just didn’t happen. “What’s up, Dixie?” I asked him, cocking my head to one side.

Keith took a deep breath. “Sensei, I gotta tell you something before the announcements come o—”

We heard the beep of the intercom, and I raised my eyebrows at him. “Uh, too late, Sherlock,” I said, wondering what it was he had to tell me. He looked pretty serious…well, for him at least.

The announcements were pretty basic (“Welcome back to school everyone! We look forward to a bright and happy year with you!” You know, sunshine, rainbows, pretty pink ponies, the works.) and Aree and I exchanged “please-kill-me” looks. Then…a voice came on. A voice we all knew pretty well. The voice of our student council president, Alicia Einstein. Okay, her last name was Smith, but I wouldn’t have been surprised if she was Albert’s great-great-whatever granddaughter. The girl had some freaking brains. But she was also totally sweet, so no one hated her, even if she did ace the classes we were flunking.

“Good morning everyone!” Alicia said, in a voice not too peppy, but with just enough emotion. (How is it possible for her to be so perfect and not have a boy ever ask her out? How!?) “As you all know, juniors and seniors are given this time in the morning to make their own personal messages over the announcements.”

I leaned over to Aree and whispered, “Omg, like, we’re juniors!” Obviously, I was being sarcastic.

She looked back at me, her eyes wide with mock excitement. “Like, let’s totally do that!” she hissed back.

Keith shushed us. Which surprised me once again. What was he doing? I knew he didn’t care about the announcements. Well, he never had before. None of us ever had. Well, except if they announced something related to us. Which, of course, they rarely do.

(But they did that day. Hoo boy, did they that day.)

“We have three speak every morning, and three more in the afternoon. So, freshmen and sophomores,” Alicia continued, “look forward to that in future years! I’ll hand over the mic to our first shout out today, Kate Nicholson!”

What, were we supposed to clap?

As Kate went on to talk about how much she loved her friends, omigod, they were like the best girls ever, I went back to wondering about Keith’s strange behavior. It was only mild curiosity; I wasn’t going to obsess over it or anything.

Fine, I was, but my doctor did once tell me that I had an obsessive personality, so I can’t help it! I mean, what, just cause I dedicated nearly my entire summer to drawing fan art so that I could post two hundred pictures online, or that I spend hours on my homework, checking over it at least ten times, or that I go home an worry frantically about what some girl said to me at school (I didn’t know if I had hurt her feelings or not! It was a serious issue!) does not mean that there’s something wrong with me.

“Hey, Kiba, while you were obsessing, Kate finished and Jack came on,” Cabi informed me with a smirk. I was about to give her my “I-wasn’t-obsessing-I-was-doing-something-else” speech, but then I figured I’d told her it before—(Oh, 23 times, huh, Cabi? Nice.) and so I shut up. Jack Wilkes was talking now, going on about how much he liked his girlfriend Marie (yes, Jack, we know, we’ve seen the two of you do inappropriate things to each other in the hallway since fifth grade), but, since he’s a man of about ten words a day, he was off quickly.

“And our last message for the day, Caleb O’Reily!”

I frowned. Don’t I know him? I wondered. Oh, yeah, he’s Keith’s friend, the guy who came in freshman year. We had talked a few times, and I liked him well enough, y’know, as a friend of a friend. I wondered vaguely what it was that he was going to say. He had always been pretty quiet whenever I saw him…I wondered what he had to say…I could only hope it was to curse someone out. Man, that would be awesome. He’d get suspended, but…awesomely.

I leaned forward in my seat now, eager to have Caleb prove me right. Please let him cuss someone out, please oh please oh please oh—

“Hey, everyone. Uh, I came on these announcements to ask someone a question,” Caleb’s usually timid, but today, surprisingly strong, voice said.

Please let it be, “Mrs. Frank (our math teacher from sophomore year) why is it that you’re such a witch? Did your husband leave you for your more attractive sister? Or are you just sexually depressed for some other reason?”

“Kitty Thorton, will you marry me?”

Well, that wasn’t what I expected. I thought for sure he was going to—

Wait.

WHAT DID HE SAY!?????????????????

My mouth dropped open in complete and utter shock. I dimly heard Cabi say, “Uh, Kiba? Kiba?” I think Aree gasped a little. I also heard a lotta kids start giggling.

But I barely noticed, as I could really only hear the sounds of my world imploding in upon itself.

Anti-Twilight Much?

2008-08-31T10:20:00.000-07:00

Ah, the Twilight wikipedia article. Here are MY reviews towards it. ^^
Opening:
Twilight is a series of fantasy/romance/horror novels by Stephenie Meyer. It follows the adventures of Isabella Swan, a teenager who moves to Forks, Washington and finds her life turned upside down when she falls in love with a vampire named Edward Cullen.

Me: When you categorize it as a "horror" novel, you mean because it's so horrible, right? Because sparkly vampires do not a horror novel make.

Plot:
Twilight

Isabella (Bella) Swan moves from Phoenix, Arizona to Forks, Washington to allow her mother, Renée, to travel with her new husband, Phil. After moving to Forks, Bella finds herself drawn to a mysterious boy, Edward Cullen, who turns out to be a 'vegetarian' vampire, (a vampire who drinks animal blood, as opposed to human blood). They fall in love, and must fight off a rival clan of vile vampires who want to drink Bella's blood. Bella escapes to Phoenix, Arizona where she is tricked into confronting James, an enemy vampire of the Cullens. Bella is severely hurt, but Edward and his family save her. After Bella recovers, she returns to Forks.

Me: Wikipedia manages to summarize what took Stephanie Meyers about 500 pages to write. Ah, yes, that's because they left out all the "zomg edward is sooooo hoooooootttttttt!!!!!!!!" rants that Bella goes on about every other page.

Plot 2:
New Moon

Edward and his family leave Forks, Washington, because of his belief that he is constantly endangering Bella's life by his presence. Bella falls into a deep depression for several months after he leaves, until she develops a strong friendship with werewolf Jacob Black. Jacob and the other werewolves in his village must protect her from Victoria, an evil vampire who intends to avenge the death of James, her mate, by killing Bella. A misunderstanding occurs, and Edward is lead to believe that Bella is dead. Edward decides to commit suicide in Volterra, Italy, but Bella stops him. They meet with the Volturi and are let go with the condition that Bella will be turned into a vampire. Once the Cullens return to Forks with Bella beside them, Jacob breaks his friendship with her because of the hate that vampires and werewolves have towards each other.

Me: .........uh, yeah, I'm definitely never reading that one. All I'm getting is "emo, emo, emo, emo, omg I need to DIE!!! D=" Which, y'know, would be cool, except that Bella's probably still going on about how hot Edward is.

Plot 3:
Eclipse

Bella is still being stalked by the vampire Victoria, who has amassed an army of "newborn" vampires. Meanwhile, Bella is forced to choose between her relationship with Edward and her friendship with Jacob. Edward's family of vampires and Jacob's pack of werewolves join forces to fight Victoria's army of vampires. Before the battle, Jacob tells Bella that he will join the fight with the intention of dying unless she kisses him. Bella accepts and, while kissing him, realizes that she loves Jacob, but not as much as she loves Edward. The battle then begins and Victoria and her army of vampires are destroyed. In the end, Bella chooses Edward's love over Jacob's, and Jacob is devastated to hear of Bella's choice and her decision to become a vampire.

Me: ...so Bella's now a whore, and Jacob's retarded, and Edward, once again, does nothing. Woo, we're in for some fun, folks!

Characters:

Isabella Marie Swan - The protagonist of the series, Bella is perpetually clumsy and somewhat of a "danger magnet". Her life turns upside down when she falls in love with vampire Edward Cullen. Eventually, her feelings for werewolf Jacob Black grow far beyond friendship, and she is forced to make a choice between her two loves. One important trait of Bella's is her immunity to supernatural abilities that involve the mind, such as Edward's mind reading. Bella is often portrayed as not valuing herself, nor can she seem to grasp Edward's love for her. Bella has dark brown hair and clear brown eyes.

Me: They forgot "Queen of Mary Sues"

Edward Anthony Masen Cullen - Edward is a reformed vampire who lives on animal blood instead of human blood. He lives with a clan of like-minded vampires known as the Cullen family. He loves Bella Swan, and feels great mutual dislike/revulsion towards Jacob Black due to both the love Jacob feels for Bella and the natural animosity between vampires and werewolves. Like some vampires, Edward has a supernatural ability; his gift is mind reading. He can read the thoughts of anyone within a few miles of himself; however, he can only read what the person is thinking at that moment. Bella is currently the only known individual who is immune to his power.

Me: Notice they mention nothing of his personality, or lack thereof.

Jacob Black - A minor character in the first novel, Jacob is introduced as a member of the Quileute tribe. He resurfaces in New Moon with a much larger role, becoming a werewolf and Bella's best friend as she is going through a depression and being hunted by Victoria. Although he is in with love Bella, she initially sees him as just her best friend. In Eclipse, Bella realizes that she loves Jacob as well; in fact, her love for Jacob is only eclipsed by her love of Edward Cullen.

Me: He might have been a good character if Meyers wasn't the one to write him.

Alice Cullen - One of Edward's adoptive sisters. She is described as "pixie-like", and her movement is noted to be very graceful. Her special ability is seeing the future as soon as someone makes the decision to head down that path. This ability is very useful, as it gives the family forewarning to any dangers. However, she cannot see the future of werewolves. She is married to Jasper Hale, who is her soul-mate, and she loves Bella as if she were her own sister.

Me: WTF? The only interesting character, and all you do is mention her relationships? That is bull, man. Pure bull.

More plot! Taken from Eddie's character bio.

Twilight

When Edward first meets Bella in Twilight he is overwhelmed by the scent of her blood, to the point of contemplating slaughtering Bella on the spot, along with twenty other schoolchildren to avoid any living witnesses.

Me: *sigh* That's so romantic!

To prevent calamity he temporarily runs away to Alaska, but eventually returns to Forks. Determined not to allow Bella to disrupt the life he and his family have created in Forks, Washington, Edward starts to converse with Bella in class. The day after his return, he risks exposing himself as inhuman by using his supernatural speed and strength to save Bella from being hit by a van. She witnesses his abilities and becomes suspicious, but Edward denies having done anything out of the ordinary.

Me: And of course she believes him because OMG HEZ HOT!!!!1111

The two become friends and eventually fall in love. On a trip to the La Push reservation, Bella learns from Jacob Black that the Cullen family is supposedly a coven of vampires who existed during his great-grandfather's time, and who feed on animal blood.

Me: And Jacob knows that because...?

Being with Edward is a lethal risk for Bella because he must always fight his desire for her blood. He constantly warns Bella against being with him, trying to instill in her a healthy fear for her life which he perceives as continually at risk if she continues to associate with him.

Me: Or he's secretly gay.

However, Bella's love and confidence in Edward's restraint is such that his warnings fall on deaf ears, even after his worst fears are justified when through her association with Edward and his family, Bella becomes the target of a "non-vegetarian" vampire, James. With his family's help, Edward is able to save Bella from James' predations, but the question of how to assure Bella's continued safety remains an open one.

Me: Oooh! Oooh! I know! Turn her into a freaking vampire so she's a little less useless!!!!

The story of New Moon begins with Bella being very upset by her 18th birthday, because it will make her "older" than the permanently 17-year-old Edward.

Me: ...are you freaking kidding me? Well I suppose that's just another reason Bella's anti-feminism. She can't EVER be a step ahead of the man of the house.

During her birthday party Bella accidentally cuts herself, and his brother Jasper's instinctive hunger for Bella's blood reminds Edward of the continual danger their relationship puts her in. In a misguided attempt to protect Bella, he convinces her that he does not love her anymore and moves away with his family, leaving her heartbroken as if her life as she knew it ceased to exist.

Me: So he's like, "Oh, yeah, that's right, I might eat her...whups, don't love her anymore!" And Bella, being the anti-feminist in every way, decides her life has absolutely no meaning now that Eddy-kins is gone, and will spend the rest of the book angsting over him.

Although Edward lived as a vampire without romantic love for nearly a century before meeting Bella, he finds it difficult to live without her, becoming severely depressed at the prospect of an infinitely long and meaningless life.

Me: Just one more example on why Edward Cullen is the most unrealistic person imaginable. Dude. NO GUY would be alone for 100 YEARS, unless he was a eunuch or a priest. ...and Cullen ain't no priest, if'n you know what I mean.

After he mistakenly learns from his sister Rosalie that Bella has committed suicide, Edward attempts to convince a group of Italian vampires, the Volturi, to kill him. Together with his sister Alice, Bella rushes to Italy and stops Edward before the Volturi can destroy him.

Me: For the love of God, the two of them are pathetic.

After he and Bella return from Italy, Edward explains why he left and apologizes to Bella. She forgives him entirely, and they continue on with their relationship as if Edward had never left.

Me: WTF!? SHOW SOME EFFING BACKBONE, BELLA! YOU ARE SUCH THE FREAKING DAMSEL IN DISTRESS!!!!

Upon realizing that their current situation– fear for Bella's humanity while they are together– is untenable, Bella successfully seeks the support of Edward's family for the idea of turning her into a vampire. Edward becomes furious at the thought of Bella losing her humanity in order to be with him, but later agrees to change her himself if she agrees to marry him first.

Me: There Meyers tries to be original. "Ooh, I'll have the GUY want marriage, while the GIRL wants sex! It's perfect!!!!" ...uh, no, it just kinda makes Cullen look even more like a eunuch.

Eclipse

Eclipse continues the drama of Bella and Edward's relationship.

Me: You mean "melodrama".

Edward explains that he is reluctant to change Bella into a vampire because he believes that vampires are soulless creatures who have no place in heaven. Bella, whose opinion of marriage is jaded by the early divorce of her own parents, agrees to marry Edward on the condition he will make love to her while she is still human. He initially refuses, saying that he could easily lose control in the heat of the moment, however, seeing how important it is to Bella, he agrees to try and make love to her while she is still human, but only after they are married.

Me: .........A boy refusing sex? I swear, he's a eunuch!

The plot is driven by the machinations of the vampire Victoria, who first met Bella and the Cullens during the first book, Twilight. Victoria, seeking revenge for the death of her mate James, is hunting Bella and creating new vampires to build an army. To combat this threat, a grudging truce is made between the Cullens and the Native-American werewolf pack led by Sam Uley and Jacob Black, a friend of Bella's who was there for her when Edward broke her heart. However, the truce is endangered when Bella, despite her engagement to Edward, realizes Jacob means more to her than she thought. Ultimately, Edward accepts that Bella cares for Jacob and successfully destroys Victoria, and Bella acknowledges that Edward is the most important person in her life, agreeing to tell her father of her and Edward's engagement. Edward tells Bella that they can sleep together before they get married, as he realizes that she spends too much of her life trying to please other people. However, she refuses his offer and says that she will do everything the right way: marriage, making love, and then becoming a vampire.

Me: Will she make up her effing mind already!?

Breaking Dawn

Little is said about Edward in the exclusive preview of Breaking Dawn that was recently released. It is known that he bought Bella an expensive Mercedes Guardian sports car that "isn't even available in the United States yet" and is supposedly missile-proof, after her ancient Chevy truck finally died. He and Bella have told both of her parents of their engagement, and they each approve. Also, his sister Alice is busy making preparations the wedding, which is only a few days away.

Me: ...are. You. Effing. Kidding. Me. That's pretty much proof that these books are just Meyer's fantasies. MISSILE PROOF????

Eddie-kins's physical appearance!

Like all the vampires in the Twilight series, Edward is described by Bella as being impossibly beautiful. At various points in the series, she compares him to the mythical Greek god Adonis.

Me: And by "various", you mean "every other freaking sentence because Meyers wants to draw it out as long as possible so the books will cost more."

His skin is "like marble"– very pale, ice cold, and sparkles in the sunlight like diamonds. She describes his facial features as being perfect and angular - high cheekbones, strong jawline, a straight nose, and beautiful, full lips. His hair, which is always in casual disarray, retains the unusual bronze shade that he inherited in his human life from his biological mother. His eyes, once emerald green, are now described as a liquid, golden topaz. His fingers are described often as slender and he is said to have a dazzlingly crooked smile. His appearance changes if he goes long without feeding: his eyes darken, becoming almost black, and purple bruises appear beneath his eyes. Edward stands at 6'2", and has a slender but muscular build.

Me: But of course, he doesn't go for some beautiful model, even though he's so perfect he could get any girl ever! Oh, no, he goes with Miss Nobody McMarysue, who has no conversational skills and can't take two steps without falling. Right. Got it. Makes total sense, guys.

Romantic relationships

Bella Swan

Bella Swan is Edward's first and only girlfriend, though they generally use the term "soul mates."

Me: WHAT!? HE'S A EUNUCH, I TELL YOU! A FREAKING EUNUCH!!!!!

Edward has a strong attraction to Bella's blood, making it extremely difficult for him to even be in her presence. Early on in Twilight, Edward struggled to stay away from Bella in an attempt to protect her, but he eventually fell in love with her despite his apprehensions. For this reason Edward sees himself as selfish, knowing that he should stay away from Bella for her safety but not being able to bring himself to do it. As much as he loves her, Edward is adverse to changing Bella into a vampire, despite her strong desire to become one, because of his belief that vampires are damned and soulless creatures. However, in Eclipse he agrees to do so after they are married, and she eventually accepts his proposal.

Me: Omg that ish so romantic dat he wantz 2 eat her so badly!!!!!1111 Me want an Edward Cullen!!!111
!@#$ing fangirls.

Rosalie Hale

Rosalie Hale was changed into a vampire by Carlisle Cullen after he found her near death in the street. She has blonde hair and is described as the most beautiful woman in the world.

Me: Oh, y'know, apart from Bella, of course. And Alice, and every other vampire girl who comes into the series. And possible vampire boys.

Carlisle had originally hoped that she would be a daughter to him and a romantic companion for Edward. However, their feelings for each other remained those of loyal siblings, and Rosalie eventually fell in love with Emmett Cullen instead.

Me: Awwww, it's a happy ending, cause Meyers sucks at writing conflict. Awwww.

Tanya

Tanya is a strawberry-blonde vampire who lives in Denali, Alaska with her family, the only other known group of vampires who, like the Cullens, have chosen not to feed on the blood of human beings. She expressed an interest in Edward when they first met, but he turned her down in a characteristically gentlemanly way. Edward later tells Bella that Tanya poses no threat to their relationship, teasing Bella that he prefers brunettes.

Me: Making him even more perfect, since most obsessive fantards are brunettes.

Vampiric traits

Edward, like all vampires in the Twilight series, possesses superhuman beauty, strength, speed, endurance, and agility.

Me: Well, of course. If he wasn't BEAUTIFUL, the story couldn't possibly have ANY romance, could it?

His scent and voice are enormously seductive, so much so that he occasionally sends Bella into a pliant daze entirely by accident.

Me:...what...the...@#!$.

In Twilight, Edward explains that like other vampires, he does not need to breathe, though he chooses to do so out of habit and because it is helpful to smell his environment.

Me: Um...okaaaaay...

He cannot digest regular food, and compares its attractiveness for him to the prospect of eating dirt for a regular person. As well, like other vampires, Edward is not able to sleep.

Me: Inspiring stupid lines like, "If I could sleep, I'd dream of you." Whatever, more proof that he's a eunuch, because boys can have "dreams" about girls without actually sleeping...you know what I mean.

In addition to the traits he shares with his fellow vampires, Edward has certain abilities that are his alone. He is the fastest of the Cullens, able to outrun any of them. Perhaps as a result of a talent for empathy in his human life, Edward can also read the mind of anyone within a few miles of himself; Bella is the sole exception to this rule, which Meyer has stated is due to Bella having a very private mind. Edward also retains some of the traditional mindset and dated patterns of speech from his early-20th century human life.

Me: Mm-hm, fascinating. Basically Meyers can't come up with a decent plot, so she spends all the time describing the characters. Great.

Personality and traits

Edward is described in the book and by Bella as being charming, polite, determined, and very stubborn. He is very protective over Bella and puts her safety, humanity and welfare before anything else. He often over-analyzes situations and has a tendency to overreact, especially in situations where Bella's safety is at risk. He retains some outdated speech from his human life in the early 20th century, and can be very romantic.

Me: You forgot "stalker, eunuch, result of fantasy,", and of course, you forgot "love machine."

Edward is also musical, able to play the piano like a virtuoso.

Me: Well that's not idealistic at all.

He enjoys a wide range of music, including classical, jazz, progressive metal, alternative rock, punk rock, but dislikes country. He prefers indie rock to mainstream, and appreciates rock and classical music equally. He once mentioned that he likes music in the fifties better than the sixties, and dislikes the seventies entirely.

Me: That's WONDERFUL to know. How many pages did it take to cover this? Probably at least 30, because every sentence would have a description of Edward's hotness in between.

A hobby of Edward's is collecting cars.

Me: Rich @#!$ard.

He owns a Volvo S60 R and an Aston Martin V12 Vanquish as a "special occasion" car. He also gave his sister Alice a Porsche 911 Turbo as a gift in Eclipse. He bought a motorcycle to ride alongside Bella, but gave it to Jasper after Bella didn't believe she could keep up with Edward's bike.

Me: He could have spent all that money on charity, you know. @#!$ard.

Oh yayz onto Bella!!!!

At the start of the first book, Bella's mother has recently married Phil Dwyer, a minor league baseball player who is much younger than herself. Phil travels a lot due to his profession, and Bella notices how much her mother wants to be with him while he travels. So, to make it easier for them, Bella moves back to her birthtown of Forks, Washington, to live with her father Charlie Swan. She enrolls at Forks High School and notices that the boys there are immediately attracted to her, although she dismisses their advances. She makes a few new friends, including Jessica Stanley, Angela Weber, and Mike Newton.

Me: >cough cough total Mary Sue cough cough Stephanie's ideal high school situation cough cough no one would like Bella in the real world because she's such a loser<

The one group of people at Forks High School that truly intrigues Bella are the Cullens, a mysterious family consisting of five adopted children. Edward Cullen, in particular, captures her attention.

Me: Because they're beautiful, of course. Way to teach kids that looks are all that matter, Meyers.

As the story progresses, Bella finds out from a family friend, Jacob Black, that the Cullens are supposedly vampires. However, they are different from other vampires in that they are "vegetarian"– that is, they substitute animal blood for human blood, refusing to hunt humans.

Me: Lame. Lame. Lame. Lame. The whole POINT of a vampire story is that you get to watch blood sucking! !@$# it, it's cool!!!!

As Edward and Bella get to know each other better, it is hard for Edward to be near her, because he feels a particular draw to the scent of her blood. Although he does not drink human blood, Edward constantly lusts for it, and Bella's blood is especially tantalizing for him. He must constantly control his desire. He also finds that his mind reading capabilities do not work on her.

Me: He'd be less of a eunuch if he felt lust for her BODY, not for her VEINS.

Eventually, the two grow closer and declare their love for one another. Edward introduces her to his family, and soon after she is invited to watch their baseball game.

Me:......why?

During the game, danger reveals itself in the form of a visiting vampire coven consisting of Laurent, Victoria, and James. Victoria's mate, James, is a sadistic tracker vampire who has set his sights on killing Bella.

Me: Wow, finally, a plot device that isn't retarded!

He tricks her into confronting him alone, and the Cullen family must rush to Bella's aid. They destroy James before he can kill her, though the other vampires of his coven, Victoria and Laurent, survive. Bella spends time in a hospital with Edward constantly by her side, where he admits that his sister Alice saw a vision of Bella becoming a vampire. However, he is determined to keep her human, despite her own determination to become a vampire. The reasons behind his intentions are revealed in New Moon.

Me: The reasons behind his intentions must be that he wants her to die before she finds out he's a eunuch. Just kidding, I'm sure they're MUCH stupider than that!!!

At the end of the novel, Edward takes Bella to their prom, despite her broken leg and angry protests. There are high levels of tension as the book ends, caused by Edward and Bella's differences of opinion about turning Bella into a vampire.

Me: Zomg yay prom! How romantick!!!!!1

Physical appearance

Bella is described as having a very pale complexion with long, straight, brown hair and wide chocolate brown eyes. Beyond this information, a detailed description of Bella's appearance is never given in the series. Stephenie Meyer explains that this is because she wanted her readers to "step into Bella's shoes" more easily.

Me: It's impossible to feel empathy for her; she has the most unrealistic life ever! And I don't mean because there are vampires, I mean because everyone loves her for NO REASON.

However, she has provided a more detailed description of her own interpretation of Bella on her website: she has a heart-shaped face, a widow's peak, a thin nose, and a narrow jaw with a pointed chin and full lips. Her fingernails are stubby, as she has a nervous habit of biting them. She stands at 5'4" and weighs about 110-115 pounds.

Me: ...some of that seemed really similar to Edward's description to me...

Bella also has a small crescent-shaped scar on her hand where she was bitten by James, a tracker vampire, in Twilight. The scar is described as being pale, always a few degrees colder than the rest of her body, and shines like a vampire's skin when in the sunlight.

Me: Zomg yay sparkles!!!!!1

Personality and traits

Bella is described as being exceptionally clumsy, dropping and tripping over everything in sight. She cares deeply for Edward, the rest of the Cullen family, her father Charlie and mother Renée, and her best friend Jacob Black. She hates dressing up, saying that makeup "is a pain" and that she feels uncomfortable in unpractical, elegant clothes. She has a very private mind, which is thought to be why Edward is unable to see her thoughts, and she is determined to become a vampire.

Me: Why?

She is also said to be a terrible liar, but demonstrates good acting ability in Twilight when she makes her father believe that she has dumped Edward and is leaving Forks. She also gets faint at the sight or smell of blood, as demonstrated in Twilight.

Me: Again, why the !@#$ would she want to become a vampire then?

She has a very dry sense of humor, fairly intelligent,

Me: Yeah, uh, NO.

understanding, caring and has very low self esteem. Stephenie Meyer has stated that Bella's "tragic flaw" is her lack of self-knowledge.

Me: No, her tragic flaw is that she has no personality, and yet for some reason everyone loves her.

This is most obviously illustrated in her consistent denial of any romantic feelings for Jacob Black in Eclipse, despite the fact that she later realizes she is, indeed, in love with him.

Me: Whore.

Romantic relationships

Edward Cullen

Bella's first and only boyfriend is Edward Cullen, a vampire who has renounced drinking the blood of humans.

Me: So wait...they marry their first loves? Just another example on why this book series is so !@#$ unrealistic.

She loves him unconditionally and believes Edward to be absolutely perfect, and does not consider herself worthy of his love. She often describes him as god-like in appearance, and hopes that by becoming a vampire she will become beautiful and graceful like him and his family, the Cullens. Edward disapproves of this and always reassures her that she is more than worthy, and has his heart.

Me: Because beauty is all that matters.

Edward proposes to Bella in New Moon and she eventually accepts in Eclipse, looking down on the prospect of marriage but not entirely opposed to it. As part of a deal with Edward, she promises to marry him if he promises to make love to her and then change her into a vampire. She sees this as the only part of the marriage to look forward to.

Me: Screw lifelong happiness, the joy of children, and the wonderful memories they'll make--Bella wants SEX!

In the exclusive first sneak preview of Breaking Dawn, the book opens with Bella still engaged to Edward with their wedding only days away.

Me: Zomg!!!!

Jacob Black

Jacob Black, a Quileute and the son of Charlie Swan's friend, Billy Black, also loves Bella and spends a lot of time with her during the period of Edward's absence. While Edward was away, Bella found that Jacob's presence soothed the "hole" in her chest that resulted from Edward leaving her. Being around Jacob brought a measure of happiness back to Bella's life, though he was unable to replace Edward fully.

Me: Because he wasn't pretty enough, of course.

Bella felt that Jacob was a good friend, and that he was her own "personal little sun" which would beam happiness in every direction wherever he went. When Jacob underwent his transformation into a werewolf, it put a distance in their friendship.

Me: Because werewolves aren't as pretty as eunuch vampires, of course.

In Eclipse, Jacob acts upon his romantic feelings for Bella, and tries to convince her to leave Edward for him. Jacob thinks that, since he is more human than Edward, he will be safer for Bella to have a relationship with. Edward sees this, but is still willing to fight for her.

Me: Edward needs to pick an opinion too. NOW he decides the non-human is better for Bella than the sort-of-human?

Jacob forcefully kisses Bella, resulting in her punching him and breaking her hand almost ending their friendship. Nevertheless, Jacob overhears that Bella and Edward are engaged and makes Bella kiss him, saying that if she doesn't he will risk his life. She does so, and realizes that she is in love with Jacob but that her love for Edward is greater. She tells him that she loves him, and he says that he wishes it was enough.

Me: ...whore.

Mike Newton

Mike Newton is a generically popular boy at Bella's new high school who is instantly attracted to Bella.

Me: WHY!?

He is friendly and Bella thinks he possesses traits like a golden retriever: his happiness and loyalty in walking her to class and speaking with her every day. Mike frequently tries to ask Bella out, but she always declines. In New Moon, after a movie date with Bella, Jacob and Mike, Mike has seemingly given up on Bella, and tells her that "girls are cruel". Mike develops a new romantic relationship with Jessica Stanley when he accepts that Edward is Bella's boyfriend.

Me: Lucky you, Jessica, you get to be his rebound girl! Aren't you happy?

In New Moon, Bella tries to rekindle their friendship after four months of 'being a zombie' after the Cullens leave Forks. Mike becomes her friend again, although not with the same enthusiasm and also never forgets his fondness of Bella.

Me: WHY!?

Tyler Crowley

After nearly killing Bella in a car accident, Tyler feels obligated to make things even. He unsuccessfully asks Bella out to the turnabout dance. After Bella declines, insisting that she must go to Seattle that day, he insists on taking her to prom. He tells the whole school and convinces most of the students that he is taking Bella to prom, much to her annoyance. He shows up at Bella's house on prom night, only to be told over the phone by Edward that she would be unavailable every night as far as anyone but himself was concerned.

Me: Meyers must have been a sexually depressed teenager.

Eric Yorkie

Eric, like Mike Newton, immediately took an interest in Bella when she arrived in Forks. Bella described him as being the "overly eager" chess club type, and he was one of the three boys (Mike, Tyler and himself) who asked Bella to the spring dance, though she declined all three. He develops a rivalry with Mike Newton, and later a dislike for Tyler as well. His friendship sways and mostly falls after Bella goes through a depression in the absence of Edward and the rest of the Cullen family.

Me: Of course she couldn't consider going out with him, because he is a nerd and nerds are lame. Oh...WAIT A MINUTE! HALF THE FREAKING FANTARDS OF THIS BOOK ARE LAME! ZOMG!!!!! :0

And Breaking Dawn:

Book One

As the book opens, Bella is driving a Mercedes Guardian that Edward has bought to protect her from her propensity for getting into trouble.

Me: Because cars=good relationships.

After informing Bella's parents of their engagement, Bella and Edward marry in a traditional wedding ceremony. The wedding has a minor disturbance during a confrontation between Jacob, Bella and Edward. Not wanting to spoil her wedding day, Bella puts aside her disappointment in Jacob's unpleasantness.

Me: It's not like he's her friend or anything, so why should his opnion matter, right? =D

Edward and Bella soon depart for their honeymoon off the coast of Brazil. Edward then fulfills Bella's wish and makes love to her. The next day they argue because Edward's passionate lovemaking leaves dark bruises all over Bella's body.

Me: Lyke, oh noes. It's not like he told her something like this would happen.

Meanwhile, she has a recurrent dream of a small, green-eyed boy that she feels compelled to protect. Bella also finds herself constantly hungry and sick. Upon seeing a box of unused tampons in her suitcase, she realizes that her period is late and she is pregnant.

Me: ...Well that was creepily fast.

Though Bella has not longed for a child, she becomes immediately attached to her baby when she becomes aware of its existence.

Me: What? That's retarded. Bella, will you EVER make up your frigging mind in ANY of these books?

Edward, however, is only concerned for her health, and after hearing stories from a local woman (who suspects that Edward is a vampire) of similar situations that resulted in the mothers' deaths, Edward wants to be rid of the baby. Book one ends as Edward prepares to bring Bella home where he says that Carlisle will "take care of it," and as Bella secretly calls Rosalie for help.

Me: BELLA'S DOING SOMETHING AGAINST EDDY'S WISHES?????? HOLY CRAP!!!!!!

[edit] Book Two

The book is told from Jacob's perspective.

Me: YAAAAAAAAAY AWAY FROM BELLA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He receives news of Edward and Bella's return, and that Carlisle has told Charlie that Bella is quarantined because she has contracted a rare disease in South America.

Me: Crap, already back to Bella.

Jacob assumes that Bella has been bitten and transformed. He is upset when Sam Uley, acting Alpha of the pack, declares that the pack will not retaliate. Jacob, full of anger, decides that if the pack will not retaliate collectively, he will act singly. Formulating strategies of attack, he runs to the Cullen house. When he arrives, however, he discovers that things aren't as he expected. Bella, as opposed to being a newborn vampire, is already heavily pregnant with Edward's child. It is clear that the child's rapid growth is starving Bella.

Me: Please let it kill her, please let it kill her, please let it kill her...

When Jacob returns his wolf state, his thoughts inadvertently inform the pact of Bella's state. This causes fear and anger among the werewolves; they don't know how the child might act since the child is an offspring of a vampire. Sam commands the pack in the double-timbre of the Alpha, to obey his decision to destroy Bella and her unborn child.

Me: YES!

Jacob, who still loves Bella, disagrees, revolts, assumes his inherited Alpha position and leaves Sam's pack.

Me: NO!

Seth, then Leah Clearwater, soon join Jacob and the threesome

Me: Hehe.

form a pack with Jacob as Alpha. Jacob, Leah and Seth patrol the Cullen territory to forewarn the family of any impending werewolf attack.

Me: Cause they'll totally believe you.

As the fetus continues to develop at an alarmingly accelerated rate, Bella's health worsens. During Bella's pregnancy, Edward realizes he can read the child's mind, and is astonished to discover that the baby already loves Bella.

Me: Well, Eddy, EVERYONE loves Bella. A Mary Sue is SUPPOSED to be universally loved.

As he hears his child's thoughts, Edward begins to love the baby as well. This leaves Jacob feeling betrayed, as he was counting on Edward to hate the baby more than he.

Me: "Stupid babies. THEY RUIN EVERYTHING!" And so of course Edward is once again the good guy and Jacob is made to look like a jerk. How shocking and unexpected.

Bella goes into labor approximately a month after the honeymoon. The hard placenta that surrounds the child cracks; Bella begins vomiting blood. The child breaks free and Bella is very near death.

Me: YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Edward delivers the baby, a girl, and begins to transform Bella into a vampire. He injects his venom into her heart and bites her in several places. Believing that Bella is dead, Jacob leaves the room and goes on a rampage to find the baby whom he holds responsible. He finds her in Rosalie's arms and looks into the baby's eyes. They are exactly the same shade of brown as Bella's. Jacob imprints on her.

Me: That's TOTALLY not creepy.

[edit] Book Three

The book returns to Bella's perspective.

Me: NO!!!!!!!!!! SHE'S ALIVE AND WE HAVE TO LISTEN TO HER AGAIN????

She has just given birth to her daughter, and is now experiencing the painful transformation from human to vampire. After three days, she opens her eyes. The Cullens are wary of Bella as newborn-vampires are volatile. Yet, Bella manages to exhibit some self-control unseen in most newborns.

Me: Because, as you will see in every Twilight book, Bella. Is. Perfect. =D

She wishes to see her daughter, Renesmee,

Me: What. The. !@#$.

but since Renesmee is part-human, the family believes Bella will be unable to control her newborn thirst if she sees the child so soon without first hunting. Edward takes Bella on her first hunt to ease her thirst. Before they leave, Alice shows Bella her reflection. She has transformed into a stunningly beautiful woman with flawless skin and newborn-vampire red eyes.

Me: Because as long as everyone's BEAUTIFUL, the story will end happily!!!

Upon returning, Bella is allowed to see her daughter because of her demonstration of self-control in the woods. Because Renesmee is growing at an astonishing rate, she looks older than her calendar age. Bella learns of Renesmee's gift - the ability to communicate by sending images to people's minds through touch. Bella is infuriated when she learns that Jacob has imprinted on Renesmee, and says it is his fault that he has imprinted on her child. She loses her self-control and she tries to attack Jacob. She breaks Seth's collarbone and shoulder when he steps between the two. She then manages to calm down. Renesmee leads to a truce between the Quilleutes and the Cullens because of Jacob's imprinting. Differences between Sam and Jacob's packs are soon settled as well and they become co-existent Alphas.

Me: Bella, why are you angry? What, you think he won't be a good lovah? I think he will. Or are you just mad that Renewhatever has been imprinted upon by someone who ISN'T PERFECT!??? ZOMG!!!!!!

Unfortunately for the Cullen family, Irina, a vampire from the Denali clan, sees Renesmee and mistakenly informs the Volturi that Renesmee is a forbidden immortal child. The Cullen family understands that Irina is mistaken and decides the only way to enlighten the Volturi and prevent an attack is to present Renesmee with a large group of credible witnesses.

Me: -monotone- Oh no. Whatever will befall our heroes?

After leaving a note with Sam Uley from the copyright page of Shakespeare's The Merchant of Venice, Alice and Jasper suddenly leave the Cullens. Since the couple does not provide a warning or reason, the Cullen family does not know why the couple has fled, and assumes that Alice has foreseen there is no hope for the situation. Since it was her copy of the book, Bella perceives this as a sign from Alice. She returns to the cottage and she finds that Alice has written a name and address on another page of the book. When Bella goes to the address, she finds that it leads to the office of a lawyer who can forge documents. Bella requests documents for Jacob and Renesmee, should they need to escape if a fight ensues with the Volturi. Meanwhile, nomadic, vegetarian, and clans of vampires arrive at the Cullen estate after the family begins to seek their friends' assistance with the Volturi. Most of them are enthralled by Renesemee, and almost all agree to bear witness to the Volturi that she is not an immortal child.

Me: Y'know what? I don't even frigging care. This is ridiculous. Why are they so freaking willing!?

Bella also discovers that her power of mind-privacy has a shielding effect and she wonders if she can extend this protection to others. During the month of preparation for the Volturi, several of the vampires with quantifiable supernatural talents teach Bella how to expand the barrier. When the Volturi and Irina finally arrive, all of the vampires and the werewolves meet in a clearing in the forest. The Volturi discover that they have been misinformed and immediately execute Irina for her mistake. However, the Volturi are not satisfied to leave because the Volturi leaders want the exceptionally gifted vampires to join them. Those on Bella's side are protected when Bella's shield disables the Volturi's offensive fighters, Alec and Jane. Aro, Caius and Marcus decide to vote on whether or not Renesmee will be a danger to the vampire world when she attains maturity. Just before Aro can cast his deciding vote, Alice and Jasper return with another half-human, half-vampire from South America who is about one hundred fifty years-old. He and his three half-sisters (who are also half-vampire, half-human) are the children of a vampire who is creating a "super race." They have never caused any danger to the vampire world. Facing no other choice, Aro chooses to give up the fight, and the Volturi flee.

Me: I still don't care.

After leaving the Cullen estate for their cottage, Bella and Edward tuck Renesmee into her bed and proceed to their bedroom arm-in-arm. Bella tells Edward she wants to try something with him. She has been secretly practicing for this moment. Bella places her hands on his cheeks and tries to push away her shield. She conjures her special memories that she wants to share with Edward. He is finally able to see for the first time just how deeply she has always loved him. She wants to remove the barrier for Edward so he can access her mind. She says that they have only forever for her to perfect it. The Twilight Series closes with "And then we continued blissfully into this small but perfect piece of our forever."

Me: Awwwww...for the love of God, just say, "And me and Sparkly Gary Stu lived happily ever after and never had any problems because we're so perfect. THE END! =D =D =D"

Twilight is not the new Harry Potter

Debate Much?

2008-08-27T08:23:00.000-07:00

Today I decided to compare and contrast two of my favorite book series with my single most hated book series. I found some similarities between the good books, and the book that kills children's brain cells, but there were some significant differences in said similarities.
The books in question are The Mediator series, The Princess Diaries, and the Twilight series. Three guesses which one I hate.
Meg Cabot, author of both Mediator and Princess Diaries, is a best selling author for several series, not just one. Her writing is for adults, not adolescent girls who are still searching for Prince Charming, regardless of the fact that all the boys they've met are dogs. ("But he's out there somewhere!!!") Meg Cabot's series are purposefully bubbly, funny, cute, and witty. Stephanie Meyer's series is half dialogue, half description of Edward's "Adonis-like good looks". So, to contrast the two, I picked my two favorite Cabot series to battle against the evils of Twilight.
1. The heroines.
Bella
Bella is the utter anti-feminist. No matter what, she is completely desperate to please Edward. Everyone loves her, even though most of the time, she drones on about how dull she is. She's also probably a self-insertion Mary Sue, as Stephanie Meyers looks very similar to Bella. I would be a little more accepting of this, were Bella's life not utterly perfect. Really, Bella has no depth at all, and can never manage to do anything without getting one of the vampires to save her. Why the vampires and werewolves are all willing to help her is a mystery to me; the "evil" vampires might leave them alone if they let them EAT BELLA.
Suze
Suze, from The Mediator, can touch and talk to ghosts. She has a fondness for the color black, which few girls at her new school in California understand. She is constantly being thrown into danger, usually by her own overconfidence, but usually manages to get out on her own. Only sometimes is she saved, and she usually doesn't want the person to save her. (The exception being in the first book when her step brothers save her from the crushed school.) Suze is popular at her new school at first, because she saves a boy (who is popular) from the evil ghost of a vengeful ex. (no one but Suze knows this, of course.) Suze has usually had to deal with ghosts all by herself, and she's managed to not get herself killed for about fifteen years, even though her life was threatened by several angry ghosts. Suze loves Jesse very much, but when she is convinced he left her, she does not, as Bella did, collapse into an emotional wreck and DAI BECAZ ED NO LOVE HER!!!!!!!!!!111111111111 =( =( =(
No, Suze decides to try and get over it, even though she never gets the chance too. Wanna know why? Read the frigging books. Also, Suze didn't fall in love with Jesse right away. She thought he was hot, but she didn't fall for him until later, after they'd known each other for more than one conversation.
Mia
Mia, to put it bluntly, has no idea what the !@#$ she's doing. While it may be true that she's had three boys in love with her during this series, she's not loved by everyone. And if she is, many people are just sucking up to her since she's a princess. To be honest, though, Mia's life sucks more than Bella's or Suze's, so she's allowed to be a whiner, because her life really is pretty crappy. Not much to say about her; her romantic situation is pretty healthy for the most part, except for the whole neck thing, but she's admitted that she knows it's weird.
I'll write more of this in little doses.

For the Future, Much?

2008-08-26T19:23:00.000-07:00

Stuff I'll do later on in here:
1. Post blurbs of my story, The Chronicles of Sahinia.
2. Post lists (of what? Wait and see, grasshopper)
3. Post poetry (oh, there is so much)
4. Post book/movie/manga/TV show reviews
5. Post quotes (either mine or someone else's)
6. Post photos (when I finally buy a camera -.-;)
7. Post links to websites I love

And that's for the future. And guess what!?
I made a picture that doesn't suck!!!!!!!!!!!
Yes! It IS possible for me to draw good stuff! =D This character is Kitty, from Sahinia. I used this picture as a base. (For the record, that's Nagi from Hayate the Combat Butler. If you love comedy manga, read it.)
And here are some stamps from DeviantArt that I made for kicks and giggles.

Insecurities Much?

2008-08-15T15:59:00.000-07:00

I am comfortable with how my body looks. I am probably one of the only teenage girls in America who would say that. But I like

My eyes. They're a really nice blue.
My legs. They're not sexy, but they're fine.
My hair. It's a pretty good color, and it has a lotta volume.
My arms. Although they could be less bony.
My lips. Hey, there's nothin' wrong with em.
My nose. It has no defects.
My chest. With the right bra, it looks BIG! Well, to me.

This doesn't mean I think I'm gorgeous, just that, when I put out enough effort, I look decently pretty. And I like that.
Actually, my view on looks is probably vastly different than most people's. Unless a person is glaringly ugly, I automatically think someone is fairly good looking. I look for their positive outward features. Then, as I get to know them, I will either think they are pretty because I like them, or think they are ugly because I don't. Does that make any sense!? Ah well.
Well, not all beautiful people are beautiful on the inside. "But he's so hot!" is not an excuse to date a jerk.
But I think appearances do matter in some respects:
1. Put out effort to look nice. That shows a person (like a boyfriend/girlfriend) that you like them.
2. I think to truly be in love with someone, you have to be both emotionally AND physically attracted to them. So YOU have to think they're attractive; it doesn't matter if people agree with you.
3. EATING DISORDERS ARE BAD. You shouldn't be too skinny or too fat. IT SCARES PEOPLE.
But yeah. I'm comfortable with the way I look. I wish everyone else in the world would be too.

Quotes Much?

2008-08-15T14:59:00.000-07:00

These are all lines I hope to be able to use in Sahinia.

Serious:
1. "Don't I know you? Haven't I seen you in my dreams?"
2. "My honor means nothing when compared to the lives of those I love."
3. "Don't you know? I would die a million times if it would make you smile."
4. "No one can MAKE you do anything. They can influence you all they want, threaten, bribe, lie...but in the end, the decision is yours."
5. "I didn't know when it began. But I know exactly when it ended."
6. "Did it really mean that much?" "It meant everything to me."
7. "I'm sure he meant 'I love you'."
8. "I'm trapped between the death of those I love and eternal damnation for myself. It's not a hard choice for me, not at all."
9. "Pity...love...respect...fear...hatred...I don't even know what this feeling is."
10. "My love of you never stopped. My understanding of you...that's another story."
11. "What changed your heart?" "I made a promise."
12. "I should have known better than to think the past wouldn’t catch up to us."
13. "You always smiled at me...and now I wonder...what feelings were you hiding behind that smile of yours? What hurt, in my naivete, did I overlook?"
14. "You are my light, even if you don’t know it. Please just let me stay so I can feel that same light forever."
15. "You’re the light to my darkness, the strength to my weakness, the love to my hatred, the angel to my demons, the smile to my tears, the blossom to my weed. And though I’ll say nothing now, one day I’ll hold you in my arms and we’ll love each other forever. That’s what I believe…what I hope…what I pray for."
16. "From the second I saw you, I wanted to take care of you. But how can I take care of you if you won’t let me get near you?"
17. "Don’t die; live for me if my life ends. As long as you’re happy, I will be too. As long as we can be together, there won’t be a reason for me to cry."
18. "How long ago did you fall in love with me?" "Since the moment I met you, eleven years ago."
19. "If I could choose my death, I'd choose to die for you."
20. "Sometimes I wonder if anyone would cry at my funeral. Would their be any mourners at all? Or would their be no one, no one but the demons of Hell, dragging me to death?"
21. "You didn’t have to trust me. You didn’t have to love me. You just had to show me that someone like me could be saved."
22. "To run after you would to admit that I care. And to come back to you would be to admit that I need you. If I care for you, if I lean on you, I will destroy you, and there will be no paradise for me.
23. "And if you promised we'd be together forever, with no pain...I would run away from your lie."
24. "Memories are flower petals in the wind.
As soon as you wish to see one, it is gone.
But before it is gone, it is beautiful.
If we reach out and snatch a flower petal,
Will it have the color we want?
Will it be the memory we were looking for?
But if I pressed the flower petals between the pages of a book,
Saving them, marking them,
Would I remember exactly how it was that I met you?"

Non-serious:
1. "Why are you so embarrassing!?" "Well why are YOU so cute!?"
2. "Thanks for that exceedingly awkward and totally unnecessary information."
3. "No...we ALL failed." "Yeah, don't worry, it was a group effort!"
4. "Yeah, so apparently I'm a vampire." "...are you a HOT vampire?" "I DON'T JUDGE MYSELF!" "That's a "yes", right?"
5. "Ya know, if you just MARRIED me, we wouldn't HAVE these problems."
6. "Whatever, Captain Emo."
7. "WHAT!? Why would I fall for an immature, embarrassing, totally idiotic guy like him!?" "I dunno, cause he's hot?"
8. "You sure cry a lot, don't you?" "SHUT UP!!! -tears-"
9. "I'll assume you're intoxicated and don't really mean that."
10. "You suck, I hate you, this conversation is over, goodbye."
11. "Ooh, the romance!!!"
12. "Oh, DO try to make a comeback, I'm sure it will be QUITE interesting to watch you fail to outwit me."
13. "How come YOU get to go out with a girl you've known for TWO DAYS, yet I still haven't gotten a kind word from the girl I've been pining after for the greater part of my life!?"
14. "I dunno, cause I'm sexier?"
15. "Yeah, I kinda remember that. That was when we were told of our destiny as saviors of the universe, right?"
16. "I'm not gonna forgive him unless he marries my big sister, gives her a long, happy life as they live in a cute little cottage on a hill looking over a scenic countryside, blessing her with many children and dying after her!!!" "...you're not letting this go, are you?" "No. No I'm not."
17. "Do you love me now?" "NO." "How 'bout now?"
18. "Screw you and all your 3-dimensions!"
19. "Maybe you should try liking REAL guys." "STEVE IRWIN IS REAL!" "He's DEAD." "SHUT UP! He's not dead, he's just in hiding cause the mafia are after him!" "...THAT'S your rationalization for not dating?" "Yes."
20. "Whatever, screw you." "Now see, if I could do that to YOU, we'd have no problems at all."
21. "ARGH! EVERYTHING YOU SAY IS THE RIGHT ANSWER!" "Why are you so ANGRY about that!?"
22. "If you got any MORE oblivious, you'd think your name was spelled with numbers!"
23. "What a bloody wicked thing to do. I simply LOVE the idea of it!!!"
24. "Are you actually a girl in disguise? GROW SOME BACKBONE, MAN!"

Sahinia Much?

2008-08-15T14:32:00.000-07:00

I'm writing a novel called Sahinia. Well, that's what I call it.
The main plot: Little known to humans, there is a parallel world directly linked to Earth. This world is called Sahinia. For every person on Earth, there is a counterpart on Sahinia. Apart from this, Sahinia is quite different than Earth. It is home to magical beings, elves, dwarves, dragons. Magic exists in even the smallest child. However, magic takes a heavy toll on the body. These two worlds must remain separate, for if they connect, the universe as we know it will be destroyed. Lamia is a demon from Flame, what people of Earth call Hell. She wishes the two worlds to connect, so that her master, Lucifer, may recreate the universe in his own image. She has almost entirely gained control of Sahinia, seizing the thrown and sending her agents to terrorize the people. To stop her, the Creator sent his mightiest angel, Humilis, to Sahinia. He also chose several mortals to aid Humilis. Originally, the Creator sent another angel as well, Humanitas. But Lucifer knew he would not be able to stop the Creator's two strongest angels, so he sent his second strongest demon, Invidia, and the demon melded his consciousness with the angel's. Humanitas, not wanting Invidia to gain control of his power, sent his soul into a human child, unfortunately taking Invidia with him. The human's name was to be Valeo. He was Lamia's son. Humilis takes the name Amita and watches over one of the chosen mortals, Kitilina. When the time comes when they are needed, Amita takes Kitilina (called Kitty)to seek out the other mortals. A basic run-down of the good guys: (Note: These people's magic is stronger than most's because their magic doesn't hurt their own body; it takes energy away from their Earthen bodies)

Kitty= Katherine on Earth, Kitilina on Sahinia. The story is usually told from her POV. She holds great magic over the air and wind. She doesn't know her parents; Amita raised her. All she knows of her parents is that one was an elf, the other a human. Amita taught her both Elven and Human languages.

Amita= Kind, caring, the basic mother type. It is unknown to her traveling companions that she is an angel. There is no counterpart of her on Earth, for she is from Eden, called Heaven.

Nex= A dark warrior who teaches the Chosen how to fight. He rarely shows emotion, although when he does, it is heartfelt. He once admits that he is reluctant to grow close to others because of something that happened to him long ago. That event seems to revolve around Lamia, whom he hates, and Valeo, to whom he claims the relationship is stranger than anything anyone's ever seen.

Caleb= On Sahinia, called Caligo, he is besotted with Kitty, much to her dismay. He's a scribe on Sahinia, but he doesn't follow the government's orders. Instead of burning the books that Lamia has banned, he hides them in secret. Caleb has no great magic, but his heart is dead set to overthrow Lamia. He also seems to know her son, Valeo, very well, and says that they knew each other as children.

I'll post more about Sahinia as this blog goes on, and I'll mention s'more characters too. In the mean time, here are some pictures!!!

Copied from DA Journal Much?

2008-08-15T14:28:00.000-07:00

All this is taken from my fanfic profile. [link] if you wanna read some. n.n Basically I just wanted to put it in. Here it all is.

What would life be like if I were a block of mozzarella cheese? TO BE CONTINUED!

I'm white so I must be racist. I'm Catholic so no one has ever persecuted me. I don't support gay marriage so I must be a bigot. I don't date boys so I must be a lesbian. I have feelings so I must be a drama queen. I don't like getting bad grades so I must be a nerd. I don't play sports so I must be unathletic. I cry so I must be emo. I wear black so I must cut myself. I'm not a size 2 so I must be fat. I like to read so I must have no friends. I don't shop at expensive stores so I must be poor. I'm not your friend so I must hate you. I don't know the latest gossip so I must be boring. I hang out with a boy so the two of us must be dating. I don't follow the crowd so I must be crazy. I love to laugh so I must be preppy. I talk about my family a lot so I must be incestual. I don't always tell the truth so I must be a liar. I'm not perfect so I must be wrong. I don't say anything about you labeling me so I must not care.

My ideas for some of my future fanfics (do not steal. Give me yay or nay if you please):
1. FMA: Rent. Ed is Roger, Winry is Mimi, Angel would be a girl, Maureen's girlfriend would be a boy. Cause it's easier for me that way.
2. DNAngel: Wicked: The Life and Times of Riku Harada. Riku as Alpheba! Risa as Glinda! And Daisuke/Dark as Fiyero!
3. FMA: The Little Mermaid. EdxWinry, with Envy as Ursula. Need I say more?
4. Vampires. With SOME story.
5. Buso Renkin: KazukixTokiko
6. Fruits Basket: Kyo has a little sister, and she wants to see if Tohru deserves her brother!
7. Fruits Basket: MomijixSaki. Because it's my crack pairing.
8. Avatar: AangxKatara fanfic
9. YuYu Hakusho: HieixMukuro songfic, Bring Me to Life
10. Ed and Winry switch bodies for a day. Maybe it's cliched, but did I mention that this is AU and the two of them have never met?
11. FMA: Basic high school setting: Ed is in love with a girl, and he wants to ask her to the dance. Then he starts getting anonymous love letters from a secret admirer, and finds that he likes them both. But are they the same person?? DUNDUNDUN!
Yay or nay people!

1. Want spoilers to my stories? Just ask! Ask specific questions or general! I WILL answer them!
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Frequently Asked Questions (Or Ones I Want To Answer):

What’s your name? Peggy!

How old are you? 14!

When's your birthday? April 21, baby! 1994!

Where do you live? STALKER!

What gender are you? I’m 100 percent female! People who call me a faggot or think I'm a man, I really don't know why they'd think that, unless they're retards. n.n

How many siblings do you have? 5 brothers, one sister. Pity me. No, I really do love my siblings. Here's a synopsis of them:
1. Eldest Brother: I've never gotten mad at him. No, really. He's sometimes the "mature" one (HAHAHAHAHAHA) and he used to look like Jesus. Oh, I kid you not. Everyone thought so. And he has an awesome girlfriend, he went to Notre Dame, and he is incredibly smart and has amazing acting skills. A total Shakespeare geek.
2. Second Eldest Brother: The football brother, he went to Brown University. He's hilarious and we all try to be as funny as him. We all fail. Very smart, with a huge imagination, and the best driver in the family. Also an obsession with monkeys. He also has the best singing voice ever. 100 percent of Peggy's friends agree: His voice is awesome!!
3. Eldest Sister: TEH BEST SISTA EVER. Shakespeare freak, drop-dead gorgeous without being perfect, extremely funny, and gives the best advice about growing up. All my friends love her, and I always feel 85 percent cooler when I'm with her. n.n
4. Third Eldest Brother: Have you ever seen the Godfather? Y'know the scene where Sunny kicks the living muffins out of his sister's husband? That's what my brother says he'll do to any guy that disrespects me. Yeah. He's THAT AWESOME. He's another one of the football brothers, and he's kind of my best friend and worst enemy at the same time. Love him to death, tho.
5. Second Eldest Girl: ME!
6. Second Youngest Brother: I've taught him everything he knows about anime. He loves EdxWin, hates Orihime and Envy, and didn't say anything when I screamed out loud during a scene of Yu Yu Hakusho, just said, "Wow, you SO called that!" (Cause I DID.) He's the younger brother my friends call cute. Not that the other one isn't cute, but...
7. Youngest Brother: ...he attacks everyone. XD He's so adorable, but he mauls all our friends. It's actually really funny. Also hates Envy, and refuses to believe Envy's really a man. This brother is AMBIDEXTROUS just like Edo!!

What’s your favorite color? Pink, blue, purple!

What are your hobbies? Reading, writing, drawing, singing, sculpting, listening to music, daydreaming, playing games on my cell phone, swinging, walking, making icons/avatars on the computer, and eating.

What sports do you like? To play: Volleyball and kinda basketball. To watch: Football and tennis. But I lack any athletic ability whatsoever. And I’m okay with that.

Favorite school subject? English, Discovery (the class for us smart kids!), and Art

Least favorite school subject? GYM. I can’t make a face that describes my hatred of gym.

What kind of music do you like? Soft rock, some metal, no country. I like almost every kinda music. BUT COUNTRY AND RAP! CURSE YOU ALL!

What do you look like? I'm an ugly girl! La la la la laaaa laaaa! Okay. I am NEVER doing that again. And I'm not THAT ugly. I have pretty nice blue eyes, long brownish-blondish-reddish hair (look, I don't know what color it is anymore, okay? People keep saying different stuff!), I'm kinda flat-chested, normal weight, pretty tall. Feh. S'not like I'm trying to impress anyone with my looks. If you judge me from my outsides, then honey, you ain't worth it.

What are your political views?
1. I am opposed to homosexual love. This doesn't mean that I target homosexuals, so don't act like I'm committing murder. I have never met a homosexual (except once, but she doesn't count towards this next comment cause she was a rhymes-with-witch first) so I don't know how I act towards them. I have talked to bisexual people online, however, and I treated them like normal people. I have no problem with reading or watching books/movies with gays in them either, so if any of you are going to go on about that, get mad at someone who calls homosexuals "fairies" "freaks", etc, instead of someone who just has a freaking opinion. I also consider homosexual love the same way I view incest. I don’t really think you can be in love with someone of your gender, just like I don’t really think you can be in love with your brother. I mean, I think my brother’s hot, but I got over the whole crush on him that I had for a while when I realized we couldn’t even get legally married, and that it's very unhealthy to be intimate with someone who shares direct DNA with you.
2. Abortion is wrong. You wouldn't have wanted YOUR parents to have had an abortion, would you? It doesn't matter what excuse you use. If you were raped, killing the baby isn't going to change that fact. Put it up for adoption if you think you won't be able to raise it. For a really good con-abortion speech, go to [link]
3. I hate pro-choice people. Hey! My "choice" is to bring a gun to school and shoot all my classmates!! That's fine, right? After all, pro choice! (Kidding, okay? I would never ever do that.) Pro-choice is really pro-anarchy.
4. I hate war, but that doesn't stop me from praying for our troops...and the opposing troops. I wish they could all return home safely.
5. Democrat or Republican? Hmm... REPUBLICRAT! I believe in some ideas of both, but also disagree. Except that a lot of democrats I've met are bigots.
6. I am a Catholic. For some reason this is political. (If you’re Catholic too, let’s chat! n.n) Get over it. I'm not racist, I'm not trying to convert you, and God loves me. He loves you too. Why do people act like that's evil?
7. I think people shouldn't have sex til their married. Not just for religious reasons, it's also because, if you have sex a lot before marriage, what do you save for the person you REALLY love?
8. Drugs and alcohol are bad. B. A. D. You can't argue with this one. TT Hugs, not drugs.
9. Our government is not screwed up. The people in our government are screwed up.
10. Race and religion don't matter. Why do people like to get tanned, but hate dark colored people?? WTF!? And I know what it’s like to be abused about religion. I’m white, so no one talks about that…but y’know how people always stereotype that Jews are the ones who get prejudiced? Well, none of the Jews in my grade have ever been made fun of, but last year everyone in the school made fun of me for being Catholic EVERY DAY. So yeah. Don’t EVER call ME intolerable.
11. Girls are just as good as boys. I'm surrounded by lots of retarded boys (WHEN do they mature?) but I'm trying to lower my sexism (They ain't making it easy).
12. I feel that major issues are hypocrisy and apathy. I hate both of these severely.
13. The death penalty is wrong. Why do we kill people to show killing people is wrong?

What are your favorite anime pairings?
For FMA: The best pairing is EdxWinry. (Other pairings: RoyxRiza, LingxRanFan, ScarxLust, RussellxSheska, AlxOC)I'm good with AlxMei, I just prefer AlxOc and FletcherxMei.
Naruto: SasukexSakura (NaruxHina, NejixTen, ShikaxTemari but ShikaxIno isn't unheard of I may write a fanfic for them if asked)
Kare Kano: TakashixMaho (and all the canon pairings from this manga)
Inuyasha: MirokuxSango (InuxKago, SessoxRin)
Fruits Basket: KatsuyaxKyoko or KurenoxArisa…or YukixMachi (All the normal pairings, and MomijixSaki!!)
Avatar: SokkaxToph (Kataang!)
Ouran High School: TamakixHaruhi (No others)
Yu Yu Hakusho: HieixMukuro (Yuskei, KuraxBot, KuwaxYuki)
Tenchi: TenchixRyoko
Bleach: IchigoxRukia (ToshiroxMomo, KisukexYoruichi, GinxRanginku)
Buso Renkin: KazukixTokiko
Girl Got Game: ChiharuxKyo
Ceres: YuhixAya
Rebound/Harlem Beat: SawamuraxMizzy
DNAngel: SatoshixRisa (DaiDarRiku...so NOT a threesome!)
Flame of Recca: ReccaxYanagi (DomonxFuko) (Kaoru NEEDS to stay single. Ditto Tokiya.)
If people will give me other animes, I'll put my favorite pairings for those too!

What are you afraid of? Some of my phobias:
Achluophobia - Fear of darkness.
Acrophobia - Fear of heights.
Agliophobia - Fear of pain.
Androphobia - Fear of men.
Anthropophobia - Fear of people or society.
Atychiphobia - Fear of failure.
Bathmophobia - Fear of stairs or steep slopes.
Catagelophobia - Fear of being ridiculed publicly.
Coulrophobia - Fear of clowns.
Dystychiphobia - Fear of accidents. (Fear of people I love in accidents)
Ephebiphobia - Fear of teenagers. (no one's worse than your peers)
Glossophobia - Fear of speaking in public.
Hemophobia - Fear of blood.
Lilapsophobia - Fear of tornadoes and hurricanes.
Lockiophobia - Fear of childbirth.
Microphobia - Fear of small things.
Necrophobia - Fear of death or dead things.
Obesophobia - Fear of gaining weight
Sociophobia - Fear of social evaluation.
Trypanophobia - Fear of injections.
Xenophobia - Fear of strangers.(Only if they might be dangerous.)
And my biggest phobia:
Autophobia - Fear of being alone.
And I think Marinophobia is fear of sea creatures, which I severely have

Other websites? [link] [link]

Are you in love? I'm so cool I confessed to the guy I liked!!

Which Harry Potter characters are you in love with? Fred, George, Lupin, Sirius, and Kreacher. I will marry Kreacher and have little half-elf-half-human babies.

Lord of the Rings characters? PIPPIN, Legolas, PIPPIN, Aragorn, PIPPIN, Merry, PIPPIN, Eomir, PIPPIN, Faramir, PIPPIN, Boromir, and Pippin.

Are you a nice person? Pssssht.

Are you a hopeless romantic? HECK YES!

Do you like yaoi? HECK EFFING NO.

What about yuri? What about you dying?
On that note, I don't dislike people who like yaoi/yuri as long as
1. They like somewhat CANON pairings/pairings in which one character isn't already involved with a member of the opposite gender.
2. They don't try to force you to convert to yaoiism/yuriism.
3. They don't have 15 different pairings for one character.
4. They don't make you hear about it if it makes you feel uncomfortable.
5. They like it for the pairings, not for the hotness. I don't like it when people say "but it's so hot!!!" Well...some people think rape is hot, y'know?

Do you hate anyone? I try not to hate people. But I severely dislike some of them.

Do people hate you? Lots of people hate me. Some of them, I have absolutely no idea why, but they hate me. I don't care if people hate me, as long as they don't lie about me.

Have you ever had a boyfriend? Nah, I'm only fourteen! And girls who date before 16 are whores! So says mah sista.

How do you show care for someone? When I love someone (either platonic or romantic) I either shower them with praise or wail on them all the time. Because the more you ruv someone, de more you want to kir dem.

What are your usual grades? I get 4.0s on pure luck.

Any other questions? Go 'head an' ask 'em, I'll answer 'em!

I'm a tsukkomi!
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Things I dislike:
Cheerleaders/popular people. Not always synonymous, I know.
Bigoted hypocrites.
People who think I must have no friends because I don't like Edward Cullen. Because, in the real world, people only care about your opinion on Edward Cullen.
The fact that Cullen has the same name as Edward Elric. He doesn't deserve the same name as someone as funny as Ed.
Men. I hate men. I can't abide em even now and then. (-continues to sing the "I Hate Men" song from "Kiss Me Kate")
People who insult you without due cause. If person A insults person B first, then person B can insult A back, and has a perfectly valid reason for doing so. Person A's just a .
Zac Efron.
Vanessa Hudgens.
When people judge you meanly based on your likes/dislikes. -.-;
Political correctness. I mean, to a certain extent, it's wonderful, but nearly everyone takes it too far or not far enough. Extreme political correctness is like walking on very thin ice; you're trying so carefully to tread lightly, so that you don't break it, that you lose your own stride. (Copyrighted, muffin-heads. )
Hilary Duff.
When people assume things about me, 98 of which are never true.
When people call me "gay". If you're using it like "homosexual", let me make something clear. I am not, nor have I ever been, gay. I like boys. I have always liked boys. I will always like boys. I am not gay, lesbian, or anything. If you mean it like "stupid", then you're the stupid one. Gay doesn't mean stupid, and it annoys me when people say that. I don't support homosexuality, but I hate people who insult homosexuals. Find a new insult.
Popular people. Doo-doo heads! Oh yeah, I went there!
People who don't know any Shakespeare. DUUUUDE, what's WRONG with you!?

Things I like:
The word "stepchiled'. No, it's not a real word, it's a word my friend and I use to shorten the phrase "red-headed stepchild with sexy legs". Yeah, don't ask.
Hugs.
Acting like a lesbian with your friends.
Pretending to be racist with your friends.
Getting into discussions about nerdy things with your friends.
Anime and Manga!
EDXWINRY! EDXWINRY! EDXWINRY! EDXWINRY! EDXFREAKINGWINRY!
The song "Why am I Gabriel? Why am I Anderson?" If you don't know it, monkey you!
King Tut. (Golden idol...he's an Egyptian!) by Steve Martin.
Steve Martin.
Robin Williams.
My brothers.
My kick-rhymes-with-trash sister.
My mommy and daddy.
My friends, EXCEPT JAY! ; Jk, I loooove you, Jay-bozu, you red headed stepchild with sexy legs!
Greed!Ling's facial expressions in FMA. I don't know why I find them so funny. I just do.
Reading through people's profiles. Man, some people are HILARIOUS!
The phrase "butternut crudmuffins".
Meeting nice people.

My views on some of the most important issues of humankind:
1. Pepsi vs. Coke: Coke wins. Whilst Pepsi does do well with Jazz and a few others, they always copy off Coke. -shakes head sadly and begins to tear up-
2. Star Wars vs. Lord of the Rings: Considering the fact that every Star Wars movie either had crappy special effects, crappy script, or an "evil wins" theme, LOTR wins.
3. Pirates vs. Ninjas: Ninjas. I'm sorry, but Kakashi would kick Jack's butt.
4. Cats vs. Dogs: Cats.
5. Love vs. Money: Love.
6. Rich and miserable vs. Poor and happy: Poor. Duh.
7. Old Disney vs. Present Disney: Old Disney. Now they're trying to make sequels, most of which suck.
8. Harry vs. Ron: Ron. Ron gets Hermione, Ron is cooler, and from what I can tell, Ron has more fangirls.
9. Anime vs. Manga: Manga. Sometimes the voice actors suck. Case in point: DNAngel. The only reason I watched it was cause of Dark's voice actor. Even the art sucked. My poor Satoshi-sama...
Another case: Flame of Recca anime. No. Just...no. Literally, a huge piece of me DIED after seeing three minutes of that!
10. Cheddar vs. Mozzarella: Cheddar!!
11. My Chemical Romance vs. Green Day: MCR FOREVER!
12. Marvel vs. DC: MARVEL! The only good DC comics character is Batman. Wonder Woman's pretty good, and the Flash is okay, but Marvel just pwns.
13. Facebook vs. Myspace: Facebook.
14. Miley vs. Selena: Not even a contest. Miley.
15. Miley vs. Hannah: Miley.
16. Ninjas vs. Vampires: Which vampire, which ninja? Fai would kill Naruto, but Kurei would totally own Edward Cullen. Set him aflame with Kurenai, Kurei! PLEEEEEASE!! And hel-LO, Mr. Crepsley vs. Kakashi? Our Vampy would OWN HIS FACE!!
17. King Kong vs. Godzilla: King Kong, probably. But I've never seen a Godzilla movie...Hm...
18. Jonas Vs. Miley: Miley would win one-on-one (girl power! but they'd beat her if they ganged up.
19. Nick Jonas vs. Joe Jonas: As awesome as Joe's name is, I'll have to go with Nick. =
20. Alex Rider vs. Artemis Fowl: ARGH! I...MUST...CHOOSE!
Artemis. I'm so sorry, Alex. It's just that you aren't as funny. -runs away crying-
21. Vampires vs. Werewolves: Again, which vampire, which werewolf? Cullen vs. Black? Psht, Jacob owns. Darren Shan vs. Jacob Black? Darren would beat Jacob within an inch of his life. Then he'd be all honorable and be like, "here, let me tend your wounds..." DARREN, I LOVES YOU!!
22. Boys vs. Girls: Girls, for several reasons. If you want em, I'll give em.
23. Edward vs. Jacob: Seriously, if you don't know my answer, you probably have brain damage.
24. Stewie vs. Brian: Stewie. All the freaking way.

Defending Stuff I Like Against Arguments:
1. Hannah Montana/Miley Cyrus
Argument1: She's, like, schizophrenic!
My Reply: You DO know that the whole Hannah/Miley thing is for her SHOW, right? That it was DISNEY'S idea?
2: The song Nobody's Perfect is sooooo vain!
R: Have you ever actually listened to the lyrics? It never once says that Hannah's perfect. The line is "Nobody's perfect, I gotta work it, again and again til I get it right". Not, "Nobody's perfect but ME!" No, it's saying that to get something right you have to work at it.
3:She dated Nick Jonas! NICK'S MINE!
R: ...Has Nick ever met you? You're more like his stalker than his girlfriend, especially if you hate someone just because they've dated him.
4. She's such a who.re!
R: Right. Because most of the celebrities out there are just ever so chaste.
5. Her dad got her job FOR her.
R: When you become famous, get your own TV show, and be known to every American (for good or bad), all on your own, with no help, tell me, and then your argument will be valid.
6. I hate her voice!
R: Okay. But then, after saying that, you comment on people's Miley stuff saying "she's a !" or whatever. Your voice PROBABLY isn't that much better.
2. Anime/Manga
1: It's backwards! That's so WEIRD!
R: Lots of countries have their written language read right-to-left or up-to-down, etc. Saying that manga is bad because it's read right-to-left is racist and ethnocentric. Keeping it right-to-left respects the manga-ka, (the person who draws the manga) as they tend to like it better that way.
2: It's all about fighting/It's all about se.x!
R: Not true. Just as there are several different kinds of novels, there are different genres of manga.
Examples: Fullmetal Alchemist is a fantasy/fighting manga. But Fruits Basket is a fantasy/romance manga. And just because a manga has fighting in it, there are always other elements. Ex: Dragonball Z is mainly focused on fighting, but there's a lot of comedy and a little romance in it too. n.n
3. I HATE POKEMON!
R: Right. Because Pokemon is definitely the only anime out there.
4. I hate reading!
R: How often do you read for pleasure? Try it. You might actually enjoy it.
5. I prefer REAL books.
R: Why? Manga has pretty pretty pictures.
6. It rots your mind! (Parents)
R: Actually, I have learned a large amount about the Japanese culture from manga. And shouldn't we be encouraged to broaden our horizons?
3. My Edward Cullen Hate
1. How can you hate him?
R: He's boring. He's the perfect man, and so he's boring. -shrugs-
2. Have you even read the books!?
R: Yes.
3. You have all that manga crap, so we have Edward!
R: There are literally thousands of manga series. There is one Twilight series. See the difference? And don't call it crap, as you've probably never read it. Also, manga/anime icons are different because we use IMAGES, not just lines that have been used for a million other icons. I swear to God, "and so the lion fell in love with the lamb" is so freaking over used! > And...consider this. 75 of the time I go on Iconator, there's a Twilight avvie in the new avatars section. And it's not, like, original or anything. That doesn't happen with manga avvies.
4. How can you hate a fictional character?
R: The same way you can love one.
5. Well you're obsessed with him too if you hate him!
R: No. He takes up maybe .0001 of my life. I just made that avvie and the club in passing. It took like three minutes, for God's sake.
6. You're just trying to offend people!
R: Who's trying to offend someone here? Me, who just made a little avvie, or all the people who comment my profile cursing me out and saying I have no friends since I hate Edward Cullen?
7. Edward's too good for you anyway!
R: ...gee. Poor me.
8. You can have your opinion, just be nice about it!
R: How is "I Hate Edward Cullen" mean? If I said "Edward Cullen Lovers Are ", then it would be, but I have never said anything like that, nor do I think it.
4. Winry Rockbell, from FMA
1. She's a slut!
R: Not really. She only has one shirt in the story that's sluttish, and she only wears it at home. Outside of home, she wears not sluttish shirts.
2. ED'S MINE!
R: Are you serious? He's a fictional character. He will never be yours. Ever. He can, however, be Winry's. So if you really loved him, you would accept that he loves her.
3. Ed's Roy's/Rose's/Noa's/etc!
R: Um...no. Do you want me to go through and point out every proof of EdxWin, and anti proof of Edxanyone else? EdxWinry is canon, guys.
4. She whines all the time!
R: Compared to a bunch of military generals, who are, like, the only other characters, yeah, Winry's not that tough.
For really good Winry defense, go to [link]
Seriously, this person's awesome! If I had a livejournal account I'd worship the computer she types on.
5. John McCain
1. He's a Republican!
R: Are you so petty that a person's political party matters so much? You would never even consider voting for someone who didn't agree with you? That's bigoted.
2. He's a war-monger!
R: Judging by how he was TORTURED FOR YEARS FOR HIS COUNTRY, I would think that McCain, more than anyone else, knows how bad war is, but that it is sometimes necessary!
3. I hate the war!
R: Most people do. But can we really justify scre.wing over a country and then leaving so we can say "well, we stopped hurting them!" We need to finish our job, then help them recover.
4. He thinks we should stay in the war for 100 years!
R: -Sigh- He said our troops would be in Iraq for 100 years, not that we'd be in the war that long. We have troops all over the world, and they've been there for a while. THAT'S what he meant.
5. He's so old!
R: Since when does age tell you how useful someone will be? Doesn't wisdom come with years? Geez.
6. Obama/Hilary forever!
R: Obama can run in four years, when he knows more about leading people. And do you seriously want Hilary for president? I don't think you can trust her as far as you can throw her.

Jesus is not my homeboy. He's my Lord. But prodigal son is mah homeboy! XD

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If you have no athletic ability and are a magnet for ball-related injuries, copy and paste this into your profile.

If you actually like some of your teachers, copy and paste this into your profile.

If you have, like, a million nicknames that people use for you, copy and paste this into your profile.

If they're taking the hobbits to Isengard, copy and paste this into your profile.

KEITH! MY LIFE! MY LOVE! MY SOUL!

Keith: Shut. Up. You STALKER!

Why do I say stalker so often? Stalker, stalker, stalker, staaaaaaaalkeeeeeer!!

IT MUST BE A LONG PROFILE, ELSE IT WOULD NOT EFFECTIVELY SHOW MY COMPLEXITUDENESS!! GOSH!

---and that's where my profile ends. In case you're wondering, I copied a lot of my fanfic profile from my Iconator profile. WHEE!

And an FMA Questionnaire!

--------[YOU]--------
1] What is your real first name? ...Mary.
2] What is your nickname? Peggy
3] What is your gender? Uh...uh...is this a trick question???
4] How old are you? 14

--------[FAVORITES]--------
5] Who's your fav FMA chara? WINRY!!!!
6] Fav FMA song? Rewrite or Melissa!
7] Fav OP? Rewrite!
8] Fav ED? Vic, duh!
9] Fav Elric Brother? Um, Ed. I don't really like Al...
10] Fav deadly sin? ANIME WRATH!!!!!!
11] Fav chimera? Dorchet. -sniff-
12] Fav episode? Uh...probably the one where Winry comes in. n.n
13] Fav scene? When Winry hugs Ed in the movie.
14] Fav place? Central. Everything's there.
15] Fav game? I HATE THE GAMES I HATE THE GAMES I HATE THE GAMES
16] Fav military staff? Jean or Riza!
17] Fav male chara? Ed or Wrath
18] Fav female chara? WINRY!!!!!!!

--------[EITHER/OR'S]--------
19] Who's cooler? Ed or Roy? Ed.
20] Who's cooler? Ed or Al? Ed. I dislike Al.
22] Who's stronger? Armstrong or Izumi's husband? His name is SIG, dumb@$$!!!! And he's best.
23] Who's more brutal? Winry or Izumi? Izumi, because Winry shows her soft side more often.
24] Who's the deadliest homunculus? Envy. HATE HIM HATE HIM HATE HIM!
25] Which is better? Automail or alchemy? Automail! It'd be so fun!
26] Who's smarter? Ed or Roy? Um, WHO became a state alchemist at the age of TWELVE???? HMMMMMMM?????
27] Who's cuter? Ed or Roy? Ed. Duh.
28] Which is more painful? Losing your arm or leg? Arm.
29] What's better? Metal or fire? Why all these Ed vs. Roy ?s????? Anyway, metal.
30] What's better? Steak or potatoes? WHAT KIND OF AN FMA QUESTION IS THAT!????
31] Who's cooler? Winry or Riza? Sorry, Riza, I love you, but Winry has more personality.
32] Who would win? Riza or Izumi? Ooh...
33] Who would get married? ED AND WINRY!
34] Who would say "poop?" Uh, Maes.
35] Who would say "buttmonkeys?" Ed or Hughes? Maes.
36] Who wouldn't say "howdy do"? Ed.

--------[ED AND AL'S ROOM]--------
37] First floor or second floor? What?
38] One or two beds? TWO! Ed and Al are not incestuous!
39] What kind of wallpaper? On Al's side, kittens. On Ed's side, Winry in a bikini. What a great wallpaper for him.
40] The floor? ...what?
41] How many windows or do they even have a window? WTF IS WITH THESE POINTLESS QUESTIONS!??
42] What's inside their closet? cats and pictures of Winry in a bikini.
43] Is their room clean? Pft, no.
44] 1900ish or let's make it modern? Modern.
45] Depending on your answer above, what supplies do they have? ANNOYING QUESTION!
46] Any pets? Oh, are you @#!$ing me? Cats galore.
47] Home alone, party, parents, etc? Ed: MY PARENTS ARE DEEEEEEEEEEEEEAD!!!!!!!!

--------[WISHES]--------
49] Why is he/she/it your fav chara? Because she is such an interesting character, she truly loves Ed, and he back, and she's utterly adorable, and very funny.
50] Do you wish you were like him/her/it? Yeah...all the time.
51] Do you wish you were with him/her/it? I would really like to hang out with her! She'd make a great big sis!
52] Do you wish him/her/it is real? Yeah! Then she could beat up her haters!
53] Do you wish FMA would never end? I wish they would change the anime ending, but I wish the manga would never end!
54] Do you wish the FMA movie was on right now? NO. HATED THE MOVIE.
55] Do you wish you had automail? Yeah!
56] Do you wish you were a big suit of armor? NO!
57] Do you wish you were in the military? No, I'd have to kill people! ;_;
58] Do you wish that alchemy really worked? Pft, YEAH!
59] Do you wish for an endless amount of FMA stuff in your room? That would be LOVELY!!!!!!!!!

--------[YOU IN THE FMA WORLD]--------
60] What would be your name? Kitty Beret.
61] Your rank? Mechanic!
62] Are you an alchemist? Yes, that's why my automail is the second best!
63] What type of alchemy do you use? Metal.
64] Who are you friends with? Winry!!! and Ranfan.
65] Who are your foes? ENVY, ROSE, NOAH, and DANTE!!!
66] What is your purpose in the FMA world? To get Ed to admit his love for Winry! Hehehe!
67] Are you strong, smart, fast, etc? Smart, I come up with the plans!
68] Do the Elric Bros cross paths with you? What would be the point of being in the FMA world if they DON'T????
69] Do they join you? No, because I live in Risembool, helping Winry out.
70] Does Roy happen to bump heads with you? Yes, and I pushed him onto Riza's mouth.
71] Does Roy flirt with you? Ooh, pedophile?
72] Anyone else you run into? Yeah, probably.
73] Does anyone ever save you or are you too tough to be saved? I doubt I would get into situations in which I would need saving--but Winry gets kidnapped and me and Ed save her! (with some passionateness on Ed's part, ooh, he loves her, yeah, yeah, yeah!)
74] Did you almost get killed by anyone? Riza, after I push Roy onto her.
75] What areas/towns have you visited? Central and Risembool.
76] Are you a lazy or outgoing person? Pft, both.
77] If you're an alchemist, do you desire the Philosopher's Stone? I don't need it.
78] Do you have any automail? No, but I spaz out over it.
79] Any friends with you? Jay and Flo!
80] Whatever your purpose is, do you succeed? -smiles evilly-
81] Did you ever kill anyone during a fight? NO!
82] If you saw a poor lil' neko/dog, what would you do? Uh, run away before my kindness kicks in.
83] If you're an alchemist, who would you ask for advice on anything about alchemy? Izumi.

--------[FANDOM]--------
84] Would you call Ed short if you really met him? Yup!
85] Do you have a crush on any of the FMA charas? Wrath, Ed, Russell, Hughes, Roy, and Ling.
86] Would you want to marry him/her? No. Wrath is too young, Ed loves Winry, Russell (in my fandom) loves Sheska, Hughes is MARRIED, and Roy loves Riza. And Ling loves Ranfan.
87] Would you ask Al if you could hide inside his armor? No.
88] Are you an obsessed FMA fan? Would I be taking this quiz if I WASN'T???
90] Own an FMA website? Dunno how to make a website...
91] Do you draw lots of FMA fanart? -laughs at the ridiculousness of that question-
92] Lots of FMA fanfics? -continues to laugh-
93] What would be your reaction when you see Roy? Hey look it's Roy!
94] What would be your reaction when you see Ed randomly in a hardware shop or someplace? MUST...INSINUATE...EDXWIN!
95] What would be your reaction when you see Armstrong randomly in a gym or someplace? I would run towards him screaming my head off and laughing.
96] Have you seen the whole series? Pretty much...missed a few episodes...
97] Are you obsessed with a certain chara? Winry, Ed, Wrath.
98] Have you ever dreamed or thought about FMA during school, in a car, in bed, etc? Yep.
99] Between a scale 1-10, how big a fan are you? A 10. n.n
100] Do you wonder why you took this FMA survey? Uh, no. But I do wonder why you AREN'T taking it!!!!!

My Deviantart journal can be found here

Avatars Much?

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Intro Much?

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This is an introduction to my blog. Welcome, stranger, to a world in which McTully gets to talk and you are not privileged as such unless you, too, have an account, and wish to comment. Otherwise, shut up, stranger, and let me freaking write what I want.
A few disclaimers.
1. I am fourteen right now. I am not an adult, and therefore am not inclined to act as such, unless I so choose. A.k.a., shut up about maturity. I DON'T WANT TO.
2. I am a white Catholic. This does not mean I am racist. This does not mean I have never been persecuted. This does not mean I hate people. Please do not judge me, and I will return the favor.
3. I will post my opinions all the time. I am not going to hide what I think. So shut up. NOW.
4. I will also post much writing/drawing on this blog. I like to. Yay.
5. I am a hyper fangirlish psycho. You have been warned.
6. P. McTully is a pseudonym, a false name. Since I'm an aspiring author, I wanna have a fake name so people who hate my stuff won't throw bricks through my windows.

Aaaand that's it. If you want to see some of my other accounts on other websites:
Deviantart
Fanfiction
Iconator

And that's about it! Look forward to crap from me, darlings!!!